1 00:00:05,767 --> 00:00:06,967 >> THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED 2 00:00:06,967 --> 00:00:09,667 MYSELF, I WEIGHED 337 POUNDS, 3 00:00:09,667 --> 00:00:11,333 AND I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, "THAT'S 4 00:00:11,333 --> 00:00:11,933 NOT BIG. 5 00:00:11,933 --> 00:00:13,433 THAT'S NOT BAD AT ALL." 6 00:00:13,433 --> 00:00:15,400 AND WHEN I STEPPED ON THE SCALE 7 00:00:15,400 --> 00:00:17,067 AND IT SAID 645, I STARTED 8 00:00:17,067 --> 00:00:19,333 CRYING RIGHT THEN AND THERE. 9 00:00:19,500 --> 00:00:21,667 BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, YOU'RE FACED 10 00:00:21,667 --> 00:00:22,867 WITH THAT NOW. 11 00:00:22,867 --> 00:00:24,767 [ SNIFFLES ] 12 00:00:30,733 --> 00:00:32,700 A DOCTOR TOLD MY MOM THAT I 13 00:00:32,700 --> 00:00:34,633 WOULD GO TO SLEEP AND DIE. 14 00:00:34,633 --> 00:00:35,467 YOU KNOW, IF I DIDN'T HAVE THE 15 00:00:35,467 --> 00:00:38,533 SURGERY, THERE WOULD BE NO LIFE. 16 00:00:47,500 --> 00:00:48,933 >> LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK. 17 00:00:48,933 --> 00:00:52,300 LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK. 18 00:00:52,300 --> 00:00:54,200 THIS IS NOT EASY. 19 00:01:03,467 --> 00:01:04,733 >> COME OVER AND LIFT! 20 00:01:04,733 --> 00:01:06,567 >> HE'S BECOMING INDEPENDENT, 21 00:01:06,567 --> 00:01:08,300 AND I THINK HE'S FRIGHTENED 22 00:01:08,300 --> 00:01:09,867 ABOUT THAT. 23 00:01:09,867 --> 00:01:12,600 >> OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP WAS 24 00:01:12,600 --> 00:01:14,767 BASED ON ME BEING FAT. 25 00:01:14,767 --> 00:01:16,800 AND NOW HE SEES ME GETTING MY 26 00:01:16,800 --> 00:01:18,867 LIFE BACK, AND HE'S AFRAID I'M 27 00:01:18,867 --> 00:01:20,667 GONNA LEAVE HIM. 28 00:01:21,867 --> 00:01:23,733 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 29 00:01:28,633 --> 00:01:30,400 I COULD TELL YOU THIS WHOLE 30 00:01:30,400 --> 00:01:32,433 JOURNEY WAS EASY, BUT THAT WOULD 31 00:01:32,433 --> 00:01:34,200 BE A LIE, BUT IT WOULDN'T BE A 32 00:01:34,200 --> 00:01:36,067 LIE TO TELL YOU IT WAS WORTH IT. 33 00:01:36,067 --> 00:01:39,267 NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S 34 00:01:39,267 --> 00:01:42,367 LIKE TO GO FROM WHERE I WAS TO 35 00:01:42,367 --> 00:01:44,433 WHERE I AM TODAY. 36 00:02:13,333 --> 00:02:15,100 IT'S NOT LIKE I SET OUT TO SAY, 37 00:02:15,100 --> 00:02:16,933 "OOH, I WANT TO GROW UP TO BE 38 00:02:16,933 --> 00:02:18,533 THE WORLD'S BIGGEST LADY. 39 00:02:18,533 --> 00:02:21,667 I WANT TO BE 700 POUNDS." 40 00:02:21,667 --> 00:02:25,067 IT JUST HAPPENED. 41 00:02:25,067 --> 00:02:26,567 FOR THE LONGEST TIME, I REALLY 42 00:02:26,567 --> 00:02:28,233 TALKED MYSELF INTO I DIDN'T HAVE 43 00:02:28,233 --> 00:02:29,233 A WEIGHT PROBLEM. 44 00:02:29,233 --> 00:02:30,333 I WAS STILL WALKING. 45 00:02:30,333 --> 00:02:31,833 IF I HAD A WEIGHT PROBLEM, I 46 00:02:31,833 --> 00:02:33,733 COULD NOT WALK. 47 00:02:39,333 --> 00:02:40,733 >> HER WHOLE LIFE, MELISSA'S 48 00:02:40,733 --> 00:02:42,800 BEEN KIND OF HEAVY. 49 00:02:42,800 --> 00:02:44,167 IT JUST SEEMED LIKE IT ESCALATED 50 00:02:44,167 --> 00:02:45,500 AND KEPT GETTING BIGGER AND MORE 51 00:02:45,500 --> 00:02:48,467 AND MORE, AND THEN SHE REALLY 52 00:02:48,467 --> 00:02:49,633 GAINED SOME MORE. 53 00:02:49,800 --> 00:02:51,100 SHE SAID, "I KNOW. I'M FAT. 54 00:02:51,100 --> 00:02:52,567 I'M FAT." 55 00:02:52,567 --> 00:02:54,333 AND I SAID, "MELISSA, IT'S NOT 56 00:02:54,333 --> 00:02:54,967 THAT." 57 00:02:54,967 --> 00:02:56,900 I SAID, "IT'S HARD FOR US TO 58 00:02:56,900 --> 00:02:58,867 LOOK AT YOU AND KNOW THAT YOU 59 00:02:58,867 --> 00:03:00,867 CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS. 60 00:03:00,867 --> 00:03:02,200 YOU JUST CAN'T DO IT." 61 00:03:02,367 --> 00:03:03,167 >> THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED 62 00:03:03,167 --> 00:03:05,800 MYSELF, I WEIGHED 337 POUNDS, 63 00:03:05,800 --> 00:03:07,300 AND I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, "THAT'S 64 00:03:07,300 --> 00:03:07,833 NOT BIG. 65 00:03:07,833 --> 00:03:09,433 THAT'S NOT BAD AT ALL." 66 00:03:09,433 --> 00:03:11,300 AND THEN I WENT TO A DOCTOR, 67 00:03:11,300 --> 00:03:13,400 AND WHEN I STEPPED ON THE SCALES 68 00:03:13,400 --> 00:03:15,433 AND IT SAID 645, I STARTED 69 00:03:15,433 --> 00:03:17,567 CRYING RIGHT THEN AND THERE. 70 00:03:17,567 --> 00:03:18,900 BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, YOU'RE FACED 71 00:03:18,900 --> 00:03:19,867 WITH THAT NOW. 72 00:03:19,867 --> 00:03:21,767 [ SNIFFLES ] 73 00:03:24,933 --> 00:03:26,400 IT'S NOT A NUMBER YOU 74 00:03:26,400 --> 00:03:28,067 ASSOCIATE WITH A PERSON. 75 00:03:28,067 --> 00:03:29,900 NO PERSON SHOULD EVER BE THAT 76 00:03:29,900 --> 00:03:31,067 NUMBER. 77 00:03:31,067 --> 00:03:31,900 >> IT'S BEEN TOUGH. 78 00:03:32,067 --> 00:03:33,867 I WORRY ABOUT HER GETTING SICK. 79 00:03:33,867 --> 00:03:35,567 I WORRY ABOUT COMING HOME AND 80 00:03:35,567 --> 00:03:37,233 FINDING HER DEAD BECAUSE HER 81 00:03:37,233 --> 00:03:38,133 BODY KILLED HER. 82 00:03:38,300 --> 00:03:39,633 SHE'S GOT HER WHOLE LIFE AHEAD 83 00:03:39,633 --> 00:03:40,900 OF HER, AND I'M TO THE POINT 84 00:03:40,900 --> 00:03:42,100 WHERE I'M READY TO START A 85 00:03:42,100 --> 00:03:43,533 FAMILY AND SETTLE DOWN, AND WITH 86 00:03:43,533 --> 00:03:44,900 HER BEING THE SIZE THAT SHE IS, 87 00:03:44,900 --> 00:03:45,967 WE CAN'T DO THAT. 88 00:03:45,967 --> 00:03:47,067 >> HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING TODAY? 89 00:03:47,067 --> 00:03:48,067 >> JUST FINE. HOW YOU DOING? 90 00:03:48,067 --> 00:03:49,767 >> GREAT. 91 00:03:49,767 --> 00:03:52,633 >> WE MET IN 1997. 92 00:03:52,633 --> 00:03:54,800 THAT WAS A LONG TIME AGO. 93 00:03:54,800 --> 00:03:56,367 FIRST QUESTION SHE ASKED ME WAS, 94 00:03:56,367 --> 00:03:57,733 "WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HAT, AND 95 00:03:57,733 --> 00:03:59,067 WHAT COLOR IS YOUR TRUCK?" 96 00:03:59,067 --> 00:04:00,467 AND, OF COURSE, THE HAT WAS 97 00:04:00,467 --> 00:04:02,267 WHITE, AND THE TRUCK WAS BLACK. 98 00:04:02,433 --> 00:04:03,667 >> IT'S FUNNY, 'CAUSE I KNEW 99 00:04:03,667 --> 00:04:04,867 RIGHT THEN THAT I WAS GONNA 100 00:04:04,867 --> 00:04:08,333 MARRY HIM. 101 00:04:08,333 --> 00:04:09,233 >> TRUTHFULLY, I HAVE NO IDEA 102 00:04:09,233 --> 00:04:10,167 WHAT SHE WEIGHED WHEN I FIRST 103 00:04:10,167 --> 00:04:10,500 MET HER. 104 00:04:10,500 --> 00:04:11,900 SHE WOULDN'T TELL ME. 105 00:04:11,900 --> 00:04:13,067 IF I HAD TO GUESS, I'D PROBABLY 106 00:04:13,067 --> 00:04:15,267 SAY CLOSE TO 400 POUNDS. 107 00:04:15,267 --> 00:04:16,633 BUT THAT DIDN'T MATTER TO ME. 108 00:04:16,633 --> 00:04:18,167 IT DIDN'T BOTHER ME. 109 00:04:18,167 --> 00:04:19,900 I JUST KNEW SHE WAS THE ONE. 110 00:04:19,900 --> 00:04:22,267 [ APPLAUSE ] 111 00:04:22,267 --> 00:04:23,933 WE KNEW THAT WE WANTED TO HAVE A 112 00:04:23,933 --> 00:04:25,300 CHILD TOGETHER AND HAVE A 113 00:04:25,300 --> 00:04:26,700 FAMILY. 114 00:04:26,867 --> 00:04:28,900 >> I HOPE TO HAVE KIDS. 115 00:04:28,900 --> 00:04:31,533 THAT WOULD BE WONDERFUL, BECAUSE 116 00:04:31,533 --> 00:04:32,233 I LOVE KIDS. 117 00:04:32,233 --> 00:04:33,067 >> HERE YOU GO. 118 00:04:33,067 --> 00:04:35,600 [ HUMS, LAUGHS ] 119 00:04:35,600 --> 00:04:37,100 >> OH, WAIT. 120 00:04:37,100 --> 00:04:40,433 [ CART BEEPING ] 121 00:04:40,433 --> 00:04:41,833 WHAT EVERYBODY TAKES FOR GRANTED 122 00:04:41,833 --> 00:04:43,767 EVERY DAY, I CAN'T DO. 123 00:04:43,933 --> 00:04:45,467 THE HARDEST THING ABOUT BEING IN 124 00:04:45,467 --> 00:04:46,967 PUBLIC AT MY WEIGHT IS, YOU GET 125 00:04:46,967 --> 00:04:48,833 LOTS OF LOOKS, AND SOME ARE 126 00:04:48,833 --> 00:04:52,067 SYMPATHETIC, SOME ARE, "OH, YOU 127 00:04:52,067 --> 00:04:54,600 DIRTY WASTE." 128 00:04:54,600 --> 00:04:56,500 >> YEAH. 129 00:05:01,600 --> 00:05:05,200 >> [ LAUGHS ] 130 00:05:05,200 --> 00:05:06,867 >> THINK WHAT YOU WANT IN YOUR 131 00:05:06,867 --> 00:05:07,333 HEAD. 132 00:05:07,333 --> 00:05:08,800 WHISPER WHAT YOU WANT WITH 133 00:05:08,800 --> 00:05:10,167 SOMEBODY WHO'S WITH YOU. 134 00:05:10,167 --> 00:05:11,767 BUT TO SAY IT OUT LOUD IS THE 135 00:05:11,767 --> 00:05:12,600 WORST. 136 00:05:12,600 --> 00:05:15,300 THE ONLY THING I WANT TO DO IS 137 00:05:15,300 --> 00:05:17,800 JUST TO FALL INTO A DEEP HOLE 138 00:05:17,800 --> 00:05:18,833 AND JUST NEVER COME OUT. 139 00:05:18,833 --> 00:05:19,833 AND I WAS LIKE, "YEAH." 140 00:05:19,833 --> 00:05:21,100 HE WAS LIKE, "WELL, IF YOU GET 141 00:05:21,100 --> 00:05:22,300 ANY BIGGER, THEN YOU CAN JUST 142 00:05:22,300 --> 00:05:26,433 BUY A BIGGER CART." 143 00:05:26,433 --> 00:05:31,067 >> HMM. HMM. 144 00:05:31,067 --> 00:05:33,100 >> [ SOBS ] 145 00:05:33,267 --> 00:05:36,900 >> IT'LL BE ALL RIGHT. 146 00:05:36,900 --> 00:05:38,233 >> [ Voice breaking ] IT'S AWFUL 147 00:05:38,233 --> 00:05:42,067 TO REALIZE WHAT I HAD DONE TO 148 00:05:42,067 --> 00:05:44,067 MYSELF. 149 00:05:44,067 --> 00:05:44,733 [ SNIFFLES ] 150 00:05:44,733 --> 00:05:46,233 BUT IT WASN'T JUST ME THAT IT 151 00:05:46,233 --> 00:05:46,900 AFFECTED. 152 00:05:46,900 --> 00:05:48,467 I HAVE TO RELY ON CHRIS FOR 153 00:05:48,467 --> 00:05:49,233 EVERYTHING. 154 00:05:49,233 --> 00:05:50,467 [ SNIFFLES ] 155 00:05:50,467 --> 00:05:51,733 AND IF SOMETHING SHOULD HAPPEN 156 00:05:51,733 --> 00:05:52,900 TO CHRIS, I WOULD HAVE TO GO 157 00:05:52,900 --> 00:05:54,767 HOME TO MY PARENTS, AND THAT'S 158 00:05:54,767 --> 00:05:56,667 NOT HOW IT SHOULD BE. 159 00:06:01,067 --> 00:06:02,533 WHERE YOU WANT TO GO EAT? 160 00:06:02,533 --> 00:06:04,333 I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYBODY SAYS. 161 00:06:04,333 --> 00:06:05,333 I WAS ADDICTED. 162 00:06:05,333 --> 00:06:07,167 ONCE YOU GET ADDICTED, YOU CAN'T 163 00:06:07,167 --> 00:06:07,833 STOP. 164 00:06:07,833 --> 00:06:09,900 >> ME BEING THE HUSBAND AND 165 00:06:09,900 --> 00:06:12,067 WANTING TO GIVE HER WHAT SHE 166 00:06:12,067 --> 00:06:13,633 WANTS, IT WOULD BE NOTHING FOR 167 00:06:13,633 --> 00:06:15,200 ME TO BRING HOME TWO BIG MACS, 168 00:06:15,200 --> 00:06:16,733 20-PIECE McNUGGETS, CHOCOLATE 169 00:06:16,733 --> 00:06:18,333 BARS, SODA POP. 170 00:06:18,333 --> 00:06:20,833 >> CAN I HAVE SOME OF YOUR 171 00:06:20,833 --> 00:06:21,733 FRIES? 172 00:06:21,733 --> 00:06:24,067 >> WE WOULD GO INTO TOWN, STOP 173 00:06:24,067 --> 00:06:26,233 AT WHEREVER, AND GET SOMETHING 174 00:06:26,233 --> 00:06:28,533 TO EAT AND THEN COME HOME AND 175 00:06:28,533 --> 00:06:29,067 COOK. 176 00:06:29,067 --> 00:06:31,067 LOOKING BACK ON IT NOW, IT KIND 177 00:06:31,067 --> 00:06:33,067 OF MAKES ME SICK TO THINK THAT I 178 00:06:33,067 --> 00:06:33,833 DID THAT. 179 00:06:33,833 --> 00:06:35,900 IT WAS A CONSTANT STREAM OF FOOD 180 00:06:35,900 --> 00:06:37,767 EVERY DAY. 181 00:06:37,767 --> 00:06:40,167 >> I HAVE BREAKFAST AT 7:00, 182 00:06:40,167 --> 00:06:41,967 8:00, 9:00, 10:00. 183 00:06:41,967 --> 00:06:43,633 11:00, I STARTED LUNCH, AND I 184 00:06:43,633 --> 00:06:44,967 JUST ATE ALL DAY LONG. 185 00:06:44,967 --> 00:06:46,667 >> AT THAT POINT, I BECAME HER 186 00:06:46,667 --> 00:06:49,067 ENABLER AND HER CARETAKER ALL IN 187 00:06:49,067 --> 00:06:50,100 THE SAME TURN. 188 00:06:50,100 --> 00:06:52,067 >> THESE MAY BE MY LAST FRENCH 189 00:06:52,067 --> 00:06:53,900 FRIES EVER, BUT IT'S GONNA BE 190 00:06:53,900 --> 00:06:54,867 WELL WORTH IT. 191 00:06:54,867 --> 00:06:56,633 THE FIRST DOCTOR I WENT TO, HE 192 00:06:56,633 --> 00:06:57,300 COME IN. 193 00:06:57,300 --> 00:06:58,767 HE PUSHED ON MY STOMACH. 194 00:06:58,767 --> 00:06:59,833 HE'S LIKE, "OKAY. 195 00:06:59,833 --> 00:07:01,633 WE NEED YOU TO LOSE 100 POUNDS. 196 00:07:01,633 --> 00:07:03,367 I'M NOT GONNA DO ANYTHING UNTIL 197 00:07:03,367 --> 00:07:05,300 YOU DO THAT." 198 00:07:05,300 --> 00:07:06,167 AND AT THAT POINT, I WAS 199 00:07:06,167 --> 00:07:06,667 DEVASTATED. 200 00:07:06,667 --> 00:07:09,933 I GAVE UP. 201 00:07:09,933 --> 00:07:11,433 BUT IT TOOK ME A YEAR TO FINALLY 202 00:07:11,433 --> 00:07:14,067 FIND A DOCTOR WHO WOULD HELP ME. 203 00:07:17,867 --> 00:07:19,333 >> I WAS HER BIGGEST CHAMPION OF 204 00:07:19,333 --> 00:07:20,267 HAVING THE SURGERY. 205 00:07:20,267 --> 00:07:21,733 I SAID, "YOU GOT ONE FOOT IN THE 206 00:07:21,733 --> 00:07:22,700 GRAVE NOW, AS IT IS. 207 00:07:22,700 --> 00:07:23,967 I THINK YOU'RE DESTINED FOR 208 00:07:23,967 --> 00:07:24,667 GREAT THINGS. 209 00:07:24,667 --> 00:07:27,567 THIS IS JUST THE FIRST STEP." 210 00:07:27,567 --> 00:07:29,067 >> THEY TELL YOU THERE'S A 211 00:07:29,067 --> 00:07:30,767 CHANCE OF DYING ON THE OPERATING 212 00:07:30,767 --> 00:07:31,300 TABLE. 213 00:07:31,300 --> 00:07:32,800 I FIGURE I GOT TWO CHOICES. 214 00:07:32,800 --> 00:07:34,133 I CAN EITHER DIE ON THE 215 00:07:34,133 --> 00:07:35,767 OPERATING TABLE, TRYING TO GET 216 00:07:35,767 --> 00:07:37,700 HEALTHY, OR I CAN DIE BECAUSE 217 00:07:37,700 --> 00:07:41,067 I'M 645 POUNDS. 218 00:07:41,067 --> 00:07:42,767 I MEAN, AT LEAST I'M TRYING. 219 00:07:49,167 --> 00:07:50,600 >> I'M NERVOUS AS HECK. 220 00:07:50,600 --> 00:07:52,400 I'VE BEEN PACING THE FLOOR AND 221 00:07:52,400 --> 00:07:54,267 ALL THAT GOOD STUFF, BUT THAT'S 222 00:07:54,267 --> 00:07:55,167 JUST TO BE EXPECTED. 223 00:07:55,333 --> 00:07:56,233 YEAH. COULD YOU HEAR ME? 224 00:07:56,233 --> 00:07:56,667 >> YEAH. 225 00:07:56,667 --> 00:07:57,767 >> I THINK EVERYBODY COULD HEAR 226 00:07:57,767 --> 00:07:58,067 ME. 227 00:07:58,067 --> 00:08:00,067 >> DID YOU WANT ME TO GET OVER? 228 00:08:06,767 --> 00:08:09,467 WHY YOU GOT A TEAR FOR? 229 00:08:09,467 --> 00:08:10,900 [ Voice breaking ] DON'T CRY. 230 00:08:10,900 --> 00:08:13,533 [ MOUTHING WORDS ] 231 00:08:13,533 --> 00:08:16,333 I DIDN'T SLEEP LAST NIGHT. 232 00:08:16,333 --> 00:08:18,933 I'M SCARED. I'M EXCITED. 233 00:08:18,933 --> 00:08:20,133 I'M SCARED. 234 00:08:20,133 --> 00:08:21,367 [ CHUCKLES NERVOUSLY ] 235 00:08:21,367 --> 00:08:22,967 I THOUGHT THIS IS GOING TO BE 236 00:08:22,967 --> 00:08:24,667 ONE MORE THING THAT I'M GOING TO 237 00:08:24,667 --> 00:08:25,633 MESS UP. 238 00:08:25,633 --> 00:08:28,833 I WAS SO SCARED, BUT I WAS 239 00:08:28,833 --> 00:08:30,733 READY. 240 00:08:33,467 --> 00:08:34,867 THERE'S MY HERO. 241 00:08:35,067 --> 00:08:36,233 GOOD MORNING. HOW ARE YOU? 242 00:08:36,233 --> 00:08:37,100 >> I'M DOING OKAY. 243 00:08:37,100 --> 00:08:37,833 HOW ABOUT YOU? 244 00:08:37,833 --> 00:08:39,100 >> I'M FINE. THIS IS MY MOM. 245 00:08:39,100 --> 00:08:40,067 >> HI. 246 00:08:40,167 --> 00:08:41,633 >> YOU'LL BE HAPPY A YEAR FROM 247 00:08:41,633 --> 00:08:42,400 NOW. 248 00:08:42,400 --> 00:08:42,900 >> OKAY. 249 00:08:42,900 --> 00:08:44,267 >> IT'S GONNA BE REALLY, REALLY 250 00:08:44,267 --> 00:08:45,567 HARD BECAUSE THIS IS HER FIRST 251 00:08:45,567 --> 00:08:46,900 SURGERY EVER IN HER WHOLE LIFE 252 00:08:46,900 --> 00:08:47,800 OF ANYTHING. 253 00:08:47,800 --> 00:08:49,067 >> THE WAITING'S THE WORST PART. 254 00:08:49,233 --> 00:08:50,233 >> NO, THE WAITING AIN'T THE 255 00:08:50,233 --> 00:08:50,733 WORST PART. 256 00:08:50,733 --> 00:08:51,667 >> OH, I'M GETTING SICK. 257 00:08:51,667 --> 00:08:52,800 >> WAKING UP'S THE WORST PART? 258 00:08:52,800 --> 00:08:56,533 >> WAKING UP'S THE WORST PART. 259 00:08:56,700 --> 00:08:58,400 >> IT'S A BIG CHALLENGE. 260 00:08:58,400 --> 00:09:00,433 THESE TABLES ARE NOT MADE FOR 261 00:09:00,433 --> 00:09:02,867 PEOPLE WHO ARE SUPER OBESE, SO 262 00:09:02,867 --> 00:09:05,433 WE HAVE TO PUT ATTACHMENT TO THE 263 00:09:05,433 --> 00:09:08,067 TABLE TO MAKE IT COMFORTABLE FOR 264 00:09:08,067 --> 00:09:10,500 HER TO LAY DOWN FOR NEXT COUPLE 265 00:09:10,500 --> 00:09:11,667 HOURS THAT WE'RE DOING THE 266 00:09:11,667 --> 00:09:12,100 SURGERY. 267 00:09:12,100 --> 00:09:13,100 ARE WE READY TO MOVE? 268 00:09:13,100 --> 00:09:14,933 >> I'M READY. YES. 269 00:09:14,933 --> 00:09:16,200 >> ARE YOU SURE? 270 00:09:16,200 --> 00:09:18,267 >> MELISSA IS FINALLY GETTING 271 00:09:18,267 --> 00:09:20,400 WHAT SHE'S WANTED FOR THE LAST 272 00:09:20,400 --> 00:09:21,067 YEAR. 273 00:09:21,067 --> 00:09:23,967 >> WE'RE GONNA HIT THE DOOR. 274 00:09:24,133 --> 00:09:25,633 >> I'M GLAD THIS IS HAPPENING. 275 00:09:25,633 --> 00:09:27,333 LOOKING AT ONE OF YOUR CHILDREN 276 00:09:27,333 --> 00:09:31,733 AND SAYING, YOU KNOW, "HOW CAN I 277 00:09:31,733 --> 00:09:32,633 HELP? 278 00:09:32,633 --> 00:09:34,500 WHAT CAN I DO?" 279 00:09:34,500 --> 00:09:35,500 THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN DO. 280 00:09:35,667 --> 00:09:36,767 >> GOOD LUCK, MELISSA. 281 00:09:36,767 --> 00:09:37,867 >> THANK YOU. 282 00:09:37,867 --> 00:09:39,967 >> PARENTS ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO 283 00:09:39,967 --> 00:09:42,800 WATCH THEIR CHILDREN DIE. 284 00:09:42,800 --> 00:09:44,400 PARENTS ARE NOT TO WATCH THEIR 285 00:09:44,400 --> 00:09:45,100 CHILDREN DIE. 286 00:09:45,100 --> 00:09:46,400 >> NOW, WHO PUT THE CAFETERIA 287 00:09:46,400 --> 00:09:47,800 NEXT TO THE PLACE WHERE THEY'RE 288 00:09:47,800 --> 00:09:50,900 TAKING THE PEOPLE WHO CAN'T EAT? 289 00:09:51,067 --> 00:09:52,867 >> I'M PROUD OF HER. 290 00:09:52,867 --> 00:09:54,433 SHE'S DOING WELL. 291 00:09:54,433 --> 00:09:55,333 >> I'M VERY EXCITED. 292 00:09:55,500 --> 00:09:57,467 I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO HER LIFE 293 00:09:57,467 --> 00:09:59,433 CHANGING AND OUR LIFE CHANGING. 294 00:09:59,433 --> 00:10:01,200 >> THEY EXPLAINED THAT THIS 295 00:10:01,200 --> 00:10:03,333 SURGERY WAS HIGH-RISK. 296 00:10:03,333 --> 00:10:07,667 MY BIGGEST FEAR IS THAT I DIE. 297 00:10:07,667 --> 00:10:10,400 >> LIFT OVER. 298 00:10:10,400 --> 00:10:11,500 >> BUT I'M HOPEFUL BECAUSE IT'S 299 00:10:11,500 --> 00:10:12,400 GONNA BE BETTER... 300 00:10:12,400 --> 00:10:14,733 IT HAS TO BE BETTER. 301 00:10:14,733 --> 00:10:16,567 I'M READY FOR A WHOLE NEW ME. 302 00:10:16,567 --> 00:10:18,133 ...BECAUSE I'M NOT DONE. 303 00:10:18,133 --> 00:10:19,900 I'M SUPPOSED TO DO SOMETHING 304 00:10:19,900 --> 00:10:20,433 ELSE. 305 00:10:20,433 --> 00:10:22,400 I'M NOT DONE HERE YET. 306 00:10:25,733 --> 00:10:29,567 WORK, WORK, YEAH. 307 00:10:29,567 --> 00:10:31,167 BACK THEN, THESE WEIGHT-LOSS 308 00:10:31,167 --> 00:10:32,867 SURGERIES WEREN'T REALLY BEING 309 00:10:32,867 --> 00:10:33,333 DONE. 310 00:10:33,333 --> 00:10:35,867 THE RISK FACTORS ARE HIGH. 311 00:10:35,867 --> 00:10:38,200 IT WOULD BE A RISKY PROCEDURE 312 00:10:38,200 --> 00:10:39,833 ON SOMEONE MY SIZE. 313 00:10:39,833 --> 00:10:43,100 BUT I KNEW THAT, 100%, WITHOUT 314 00:10:43,100 --> 00:10:45,000 IT, I WAS GONNA DIE. 315 00:10:50,167 --> 00:10:52,633 >> PATIENTS THAT ARE EXTREMELY 316 00:10:52,633 --> 00:10:54,700 OVERWEIGHT -- THEY HAVE HIGH 317 00:10:54,700 --> 00:10:57,167 RISK DURING ANESTHESIA. 318 00:10:57,167 --> 00:10:58,967 ANY MOMENT, THEY CAN HAVE A 319 00:10:58,967 --> 00:11:00,900 CARDIAC OR RESPIRATORY EVENT 320 00:11:00,900 --> 00:11:04,767 THAT WILL TERMINATE THEIR LIFE. 321 00:11:04,767 --> 00:11:08,400 >> I'M UPSET, NERVOUS, EXCITED. 322 00:11:08,400 --> 00:11:10,433 WE'VE JUMPED OFF THE EDGE OF THE 323 00:11:10,433 --> 00:11:11,733 GRAND CANYON AND INTO 324 00:11:11,733 --> 00:11:13,533 UNCHARTED TERRITORY. 325 00:11:13,700 --> 00:11:15,200 SHE'S THE PERSON I WANT TO BE 326 00:11:15,200 --> 00:11:16,867 WITH, AND I HAD NO CLUE WHERE WE 327 00:11:16,867 --> 00:11:17,567 WERE GOING. 328 00:11:17,567 --> 00:11:19,533 I WAS SCARED. 329 00:11:19,533 --> 00:11:22,400 >> ESSENTIALLY, GASTRIC BYPASS 330 00:11:22,400 --> 00:11:25,367 IS AN OPERATION TO HELP PATIENT 331 00:11:25,367 --> 00:11:26,400 LOSE WEIGHT. 332 00:11:26,400 --> 00:11:28,333 IT CREATES A SMALL STOMACH. 333 00:11:28,333 --> 00:11:30,567 IN ESSENCE, PATIENT WILL BE ABLE 334 00:11:30,567 --> 00:11:32,300 TO EAT VERY SMALL AMOUNT TWO OR 335 00:11:32,300 --> 00:11:33,800 THREE TIMES A DAY AND LOSE 336 00:11:33,800 --> 00:11:35,467 WEIGHT AND MAINTAIN THE WEIGHT 337 00:11:35,467 --> 00:11:38,367 LOSS. 338 00:11:38,367 --> 00:11:40,233 >> I'M BETTER, NOW THAT SHE'S 339 00:11:40,233 --> 00:11:43,633 BEEN BACK THERE AWHILE, AND... 340 00:11:43,633 --> 00:11:44,867 I'M DOING BETTER. 341 00:11:44,867 --> 00:11:46,767 I'M DOING A LOT BETTER. 342 00:11:55,267 --> 00:11:57,100 >> MELISSA DID WELL DURING THE 343 00:11:57,100 --> 00:11:58,133 GASTRIC BYPASS. 344 00:11:58,133 --> 00:12:00,533 HER SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 345 00:12:00,533 --> 00:12:04,367 >> OKAY. 346 00:12:04,367 --> 00:12:07,500 >> HEY. EVERYBODY IS HERE. 347 00:12:07,500 --> 00:12:08,567 SHE DID VERY GOOD. 348 00:12:08,567 --> 00:12:10,200 IT TOOK HER A LITTLE LONGER TO 349 00:12:10,200 --> 00:12:11,767 GET STARTED, BUT SHE DID VERY 350 00:12:11,767 --> 00:12:12,100 GOOD. 351 00:12:12,100 --> 00:12:12,967 >> CAN I GO SEE HER? 352 00:12:12,967 --> 00:12:13,833 >> IN ABOUT AN HOUR. 353 00:12:13,833 --> 00:12:14,667 >> ABOUT AN HOUR. 354 00:12:14,667 --> 00:12:15,367 >> YEP. 355 00:12:15,367 --> 00:12:16,700 >> MELISSA, YOU ARE IN THE 356 00:12:16,700 --> 00:12:17,533 RECOVERY ROOM. 357 00:12:17,533 --> 00:12:19,600 TAKE A DEEP BREATH. 358 00:12:23,500 --> 00:12:25,767 >> I'M GLAD SHE'S ALL RIGHT, AND 359 00:12:25,767 --> 00:12:27,467 I'M JUST READY TO SEE HER. 360 00:12:27,467 --> 00:12:30,400 I'M VERY ANXIOUS TO SEE HER. 361 00:12:30,400 --> 00:12:31,433 >> HOW YOU DOING? 362 00:12:31,433 --> 00:12:33,333 >> MY BACK IS HURTING SO BAD. 363 00:12:33,500 --> 00:12:36,400 >> BACK'S HURTING SO BAD? 364 00:12:36,400 --> 00:12:37,300 >> YOUR BUTT? 365 00:12:37,467 --> 00:12:38,300 >> WELL, HECK. 366 00:12:38,300 --> 00:12:39,867 WE ALL DONE THAT, COMING DOWN. 367 00:12:39,867 --> 00:12:41,533 >> AS A VERY LARGE PERSON, BEING 368 00:12:41,533 --> 00:12:44,300 ON YOUR BACK FOR 5 TO 10 HOURS, 369 00:12:44,300 --> 00:12:46,200 THAT'S A LOT OF WEIGHT ON YOUR 370 00:12:46,200 --> 00:12:48,433 BACK FOR SO LONG. 371 00:12:55,700 --> 00:12:56,967 >> I'M SO HAPPY. 372 00:12:56,967 --> 00:12:59,467 I'M ABSOLUTELY HAPPY FOR HER. 373 00:12:59,467 --> 00:13:00,833 >> [ GROANS ] 374 00:13:00,833 --> 00:13:02,467 >> THIS HAS BEEN A LONG TIME 375 00:13:02,467 --> 00:13:04,067 COMING, AND I'M JUST -- I'M 376 00:13:04,067 --> 00:13:04,567 HAPPY. 377 00:13:04,567 --> 00:13:06,800 IT'S GREAT. 378 00:13:17,433 --> 00:13:20,233 >> MELISSA IS 650 POUNDS, 379 00:13:20,233 --> 00:13:22,300 AND HER BMI IS 113. 380 00:13:22,467 --> 00:13:24,567 THAT'S ONE OF THE HIGHEST BMI 381 00:13:24,567 --> 00:13:26,867 WE HAVE DONE. 382 00:13:26,867 --> 00:13:27,700 MELISSA. 383 00:13:27,700 --> 00:13:28,500 >> YES. 384 00:13:28,500 --> 00:13:29,933 >> HOW YOU DOING? 385 00:13:29,933 --> 00:13:30,767 >> ALL RIGHT. 386 00:13:30,767 --> 00:13:31,933 >> YOU FEELING OKAY? 387 00:13:31,933 --> 00:13:32,733 >> YES. 388 00:13:32,733 --> 00:13:35,100 >> HOW DOES YOUR STOMACH FEEL? 389 00:13:35,100 --> 00:13:38,733 >> IT'S ALL RIGHT. 390 00:13:38,733 --> 00:13:40,467 THAT RECOVERY WAS TOUGH. 391 00:13:40,467 --> 00:13:42,400 IT WAS A LOT TOUGHER THAN I 392 00:13:42,400 --> 00:13:43,733 THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE. 393 00:13:43,733 --> 00:13:46,267 OH, I'M AFRAID TO GO TOO FAR. 394 00:13:46,267 --> 00:13:48,300 >> I'VE GOT A WHEELCHAIR, BABY. 395 00:13:48,300 --> 00:13:51,700 >> I DON'T THINK I CAN MAKE IT. 396 00:13:51,700 --> 00:13:54,700 OH, I GOT TO SIT DOWN NOW. 397 00:13:54,700 --> 00:13:55,767 I HAVE TO. 398 00:13:55,767 --> 00:13:57,800 I'VE QUESTIONED MYSELF. 399 00:13:57,800 --> 00:14:00,367 HAD I KNOWN THE PAIN, WOULD I 400 00:14:00,367 --> 00:14:04,467 HAVE MADE THE SAME DECISION? 401 00:14:04,467 --> 00:14:09,900 [ GROANS ] 402 00:14:09,900 --> 00:14:11,567 HELP. THE SIDES. 403 00:14:11,567 --> 00:14:13,733 I CAN'T. [ GROANS ] 404 00:14:13,733 --> 00:14:15,567 I GUESS I JUST MAGICALLY 405 00:14:15,567 --> 00:14:17,333 THOUGHT, "OH, I'LL BE ALL 406 00:14:17,333 --> 00:14:18,067 RIGHT." 407 00:14:18,067 --> 00:14:20,200 I DIDN'T REALIZE IT WAS GONNA BE 408 00:14:20,200 --> 00:14:20,900 THIS PAINFUL. 409 00:14:20,900 --> 00:14:22,100 >> YOU'RE DOING ALL RIGHT. 410 00:14:22,100 --> 00:14:23,400 YOU'RE HANGING IN THERE, AND 411 00:14:23,400 --> 00:14:25,300 THAT'S ALL THAT CAN BE EXPECTED. 412 00:14:32,133 --> 00:14:34,867 >> HEY, MELISSA. HOW ARE YOU? 413 00:14:34,867 --> 00:14:36,067 >> I COULDN'T EAT. 414 00:14:36,067 --> 00:14:37,967 WHAT I WANTED DIDN'T AGREE WITH 415 00:14:37,967 --> 00:14:41,133 MY POUCH, SO A LOT OF STUFF CAME 416 00:14:41,133 --> 00:14:42,267 BACK UP. 417 00:14:42,267 --> 00:14:44,233 >> PATIENT WITH A GASTRIC 418 00:14:44,233 --> 00:14:46,533 BYPASS, THEY CAN EAT ABOUT TWO 419 00:14:46,533 --> 00:14:48,933 OR FOUR OUNCES, AND THEY FEEL 420 00:14:48,933 --> 00:14:49,700 FULL. 421 00:14:49,700 --> 00:14:52,500 THEY ALSO HAVE SATISFACTION FROM 422 00:14:52,500 --> 00:14:53,333 THE EATING. 423 00:14:53,333 --> 00:14:55,167 >> WELL, FIRST OF ALL, THIS IS 424 00:14:55,167 --> 00:14:56,600 DEFINITELY NOT A MEAL. 425 00:14:56,600 --> 00:14:58,667 AFTER A FEW BITES, LIKE, I'VE 426 00:14:58,667 --> 00:15:00,700 JUST ABOUT HAD ENOUGH. 427 00:15:00,700 --> 00:15:03,233 IT ALMOST MAKES ME SICK TO EAT 428 00:15:03,233 --> 00:15:03,700 IT. 429 00:15:03,700 --> 00:15:05,700 >> MELISSA IS DOING VERY GOOD. 430 00:15:05,700 --> 00:15:07,700 SHE HAD A LITTLE BIT OF A SLOW 431 00:15:07,700 --> 00:15:10,667 START ABOUT EATING, BUT SHE'S 432 00:15:10,667 --> 00:15:13,600 TOLERATING THAT VERY WELL AND 433 00:15:13,600 --> 00:15:16,067 SHE'S MOVING AROUND VERY GOOD. 434 00:15:20,967 --> 00:15:22,933 YOU READY TO GO HOME TODAY? 435 00:15:22,933 --> 00:15:23,667 >> YES. 436 00:15:23,667 --> 00:15:25,900 I WAS JUST TELLING HIM HOW MUCH 437 00:15:25,900 --> 00:15:27,233 I AM READY TO GO HOME. 438 00:15:27,233 --> 00:15:29,800 >> AND YOUR INCISIONS LOOK GOOD. 439 00:15:29,800 --> 00:15:31,667 >> I AM TIRED AND I AM STRESSED 440 00:15:31,667 --> 00:15:33,467 OUT, AND I AM GLAD SHE'S GOING 441 00:15:33,467 --> 00:15:33,967 HOME. 442 00:15:33,967 --> 00:15:34,700 IT'S JUST HARD. 443 00:15:34,700 --> 00:15:35,933 >> SO, YOU'RE SAYING I'M NOT 444 00:15:35,933 --> 00:15:36,467 WORTH IT? 445 00:15:36,467 --> 00:15:37,500 >> NO, YOU'RE WORTH IT. 446 00:15:37,500 --> 00:15:38,800 YOU'RE MORE THAN WORTH IT. 447 00:15:38,800 --> 00:15:40,300 YOU'RE WAY MORE THAN WORTH IT. 448 00:15:40,300 --> 00:15:41,400 IT'S BEEN HARD ON ME. 449 00:15:41,400 --> 00:15:44,633 IT'S BEEN HARD ON YOU. 450 00:15:44,633 --> 00:15:47,767 >> I'M SO EXCITED. 451 00:15:47,767 --> 00:15:49,167 >> TARGET WEIGHT FOR MELISSA 452 00:15:49,167 --> 00:15:51,167 WILL BE UNDER 200 POUNDS. 453 00:15:51,167 --> 00:15:53,600 OF COURSE, SHE'S GONNA NEED MORE 454 00:15:53,600 --> 00:15:55,400 SKIN SURGERY TO TAKE CARE OF 455 00:15:55,400 --> 00:15:56,767 EXCESS SKIN. 456 00:15:56,767 --> 00:15:59,533 I EXPECT THAT SHE'S GONNA LOSE 457 00:15:59,533 --> 00:16:02,333 30 TO 40 POUNDS EVERY MONTH FOR 458 00:16:02,333 --> 00:16:04,933 THE NEXT SIX MONTHS. 459 00:16:04,933 --> 00:16:06,367 >> VERY GOOD. 460 00:16:06,533 --> 00:16:08,733 633. 461 00:16:08,733 --> 00:16:11,333 >> I WOULD BE HAPPY AT 200, 250. 462 00:16:11,333 --> 00:16:12,867 I DON'T HOPE TO BE SKINNY. 463 00:16:13,067 --> 00:16:14,333 I HOPE TO BE HEALTHY. 464 00:16:14,333 --> 00:16:16,900 I HOPE TO BE NORMAL. 465 00:16:16,900 --> 00:16:18,500 THAT SOUNDS STUPID, DOESN'T IT? 466 00:16:18,500 --> 00:16:20,533 BYE! THANKS, EVERYBODY! 467 00:16:20,533 --> 00:16:22,433 >> TAKE CARE. 468 00:16:25,867 --> 00:16:27,967 >> UP, UP. 469 00:16:27,967 --> 00:16:30,367 SORRY. 470 00:16:30,367 --> 00:16:31,333 [ GROANS ] 471 00:16:31,333 --> 00:16:33,500 >> THE FIRST NIGHT AT HOME, I 472 00:16:33,500 --> 00:16:34,967 DREAMED THAT I ATE A WHOLE 473 00:16:34,967 --> 00:16:35,500 PIZZA. 474 00:16:35,500 --> 00:16:37,133 I COULD TASTE THE PIZZA IN MY 475 00:16:37,133 --> 00:16:37,700 MOUTH. 476 00:16:37,700 --> 00:16:39,567 IT WASN'T BECAUSE I WAS HUNGRY 477 00:16:39,567 --> 00:16:40,567 IN MY STOMACH. 478 00:16:40,567 --> 00:16:42,400 IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS HUNGRY IN 479 00:16:42,400 --> 00:16:43,233 MY HEAD. 480 00:16:43,233 --> 00:16:45,367 PEOPLE TAKE FOR GRANTED THAT 481 00:16:45,367 --> 00:16:47,600 IT'S ALL GONNA BE, "THE WHOLE 482 00:16:47,600 --> 00:16:49,467 SURGERY'S A MAGIC PILL." 483 00:16:49,467 --> 00:16:51,067 BUT ALL THE PROBLEMS THAT WAS 484 00:16:51,067 --> 00:16:52,633 THERE BEFORE SURGERY IS THERE 485 00:16:52,633 --> 00:16:54,567 AFTER SURGERY. 486 00:16:59,200 --> 00:17:01,733 [ ENGINE TURNS OVER ] 487 00:17:01,733 --> 00:17:03,300 IT'S FUNNY HOW YOUR WHOLE LIFE 488 00:17:03,300 --> 00:17:05,467 CHANGES. 489 00:17:05,467 --> 00:17:07,100 WHEN YOU'RE THAT SIZE, ALL YOUR 490 00:17:07,100 --> 00:17:08,533 HOPES AND DREAMS ARE, "IF I 491 00:17:08,533 --> 00:17:10,067 COULD JUST LOSE THIS WEIGHT." 492 00:17:10,067 --> 00:17:12,200 BUT YOU CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE HOW 493 00:17:12,200 --> 00:17:14,467 DIFFERENT IT IS, THE REALIZATION 494 00:17:14,467 --> 00:17:17,367 THAT YOU NO LONGER NEED A 495 00:17:17,367 --> 00:17:18,067 CARETAKER. 496 00:17:18,067 --> 00:17:19,600 LOOK, I CAN GO UP AND DOWN THE 497 00:17:19,600 --> 00:17:21,667 STEPS WITH NO HANDS! 498 00:17:21,667 --> 00:17:23,800 IT'S LIKE BEING FREE. 499 00:17:23,800 --> 00:17:25,100 SEE? WATCH. 500 00:17:25,100 --> 00:17:26,333 LIKE YOU'VE BEEN TRAPPED IN 501 00:17:26,333 --> 00:17:28,500 JAIL AND FINALLY, FOR ONCE, 502 00:17:28,500 --> 00:17:29,900 YOU'RE FREE. 503 00:17:29,900 --> 00:17:31,700 AND I CLEAN THE HOUSE, PUT AWAY 504 00:17:31,700 --> 00:17:32,433 GROCERIES. 505 00:17:32,433 --> 00:17:34,167 AND THIS IS MY PROTEIN DRAWER. 506 00:17:34,167 --> 00:17:35,833 EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE'S ABOUT 507 00:17:35,833 --> 00:17:36,467 PROTEIN. 508 00:17:36,467 --> 00:17:37,833 IT'S MOZZARELLA CHEESE. 509 00:17:37,833 --> 00:17:39,067 14 GRAMS OF PROTEIN. 510 00:17:39,067 --> 00:17:41,167 THIS IS MY BEST FRIEND. 511 00:17:41,167 --> 00:17:42,267 THIS I LOVE. 512 00:17:42,267 --> 00:17:44,233 I PUT THIS ON MY CHICKEN. 513 00:17:44,233 --> 00:17:46,267 FATTY FOODS MAKE ME SICK. 514 00:17:46,267 --> 00:17:48,533 HAMBURGER -- WORST THING TO 515 00:17:48,533 --> 00:17:49,533 THROW UP. 516 00:17:49,533 --> 00:17:50,767 I HAD A BITE OF A SNICKERS. 517 00:17:50,767 --> 00:17:52,167 I WON'T DO IT AGAIN, BECAUSE IT 518 00:17:52,167 --> 00:17:55,200 WASN'T WORTH GETTING SICK OVER. 519 00:17:55,200 --> 00:17:57,833 CHRIS -- HE'S DONE WAY MORE THAN 520 00:17:57,833 --> 00:18:00,133 A HUSBAND SHOULD HAVE TO DO. 521 00:18:00,133 --> 00:18:02,100 YOU HAVE TO WASH YOUR WIFE 522 00:18:02,100 --> 00:18:04,367 BECAUSE SHE CAN'T WASH HERSELF, 523 00:18:04,367 --> 00:18:06,067 OR YOU HAVE TO WIPE HER BECAUSE 524 00:18:06,067 --> 00:18:07,333 SHE CAN'T CLEAN UP AFTER 525 00:18:07,333 --> 00:18:07,933 HERSELF. 526 00:18:07,933 --> 00:18:09,833 AND "LET THERE BE LIGHT." 527 00:18:09,833 --> 00:18:11,367 BUT NOW HE DOESN'T HAVE TO DO 528 00:18:11,367 --> 00:18:12,167 THAT ANYMORE. 529 00:18:12,167 --> 00:18:13,867 OH! 530 00:18:13,867 --> 00:18:16,067 SEE MY CHAIR? 531 00:18:16,067 --> 00:18:17,733 IT'S STRANGE TO BE ABLE TO FIT 532 00:18:17,733 --> 00:18:20,400 MY WHOLE BODY INTO THE CHAIR. 533 00:18:20,400 --> 00:18:21,767 I DO THINGS I HAVEN'T DONE IN 534 00:18:21,767 --> 00:18:22,200 YEARS. 535 00:18:22,200 --> 00:18:23,700 BEFORE, I HAD TO WAIT TILL CHRIS 536 00:18:23,700 --> 00:18:24,267 GOT HOME. 537 00:18:24,267 --> 00:18:26,200 NOW HE COMPLAINS SOMETIMES, "YOU 538 00:18:26,200 --> 00:18:27,533 ALWAYS GET THE MAIL." 539 00:18:27,533 --> 00:18:29,400 I FEEL LIKE I HAVE SOMETHING TO 540 00:18:29,400 --> 00:18:30,833 LIVE FOR, JUST GETTING 541 00:18:30,833 --> 00:18:32,533 REACQUAINTED WITH THE PERSON 542 00:18:32,533 --> 00:18:34,433 THAT I'VE ALWAYS BEEN. 543 00:18:37,900 --> 00:18:39,667 >> COME ON IN, MELISSA. 544 00:18:39,667 --> 00:18:41,367 >> I'M AFRAID BECAUSE I KEEP 545 00:18:41,367 --> 00:18:43,100 HEARING YOU LOSE MOST OF YOUR 546 00:18:43,100 --> 00:18:44,900 WEIGHT WITHIN, LIKE, THE FIRST 547 00:18:44,900 --> 00:18:46,700 SIX MONTHS, AND THAT NUMBER IS 548 00:18:46,700 --> 00:18:48,200 CREEPING REALLY FAST. 549 00:19:00,367 --> 00:19:02,200 AHA! I TOLD YOU. 550 00:19:02,200 --> 00:19:05,100 [ LAUGHS ] I TOLD YOU. 551 00:19:05,267 --> 00:19:06,267 YOU FIGURE THAT LOSING WEIGHT 552 00:19:06,267 --> 00:19:07,533 WOULD MAKE YOU HAPPY. 553 00:19:07,533 --> 00:19:08,700 I WISH IT WAS MORE. 554 00:19:08,700 --> 00:19:09,867 I WISH IT WAS MORE. 555 00:19:09,867 --> 00:19:11,433 I GUESS I WANT TOO MUCH TOO 556 00:19:11,433 --> 00:19:11,933 FAST. 557 00:19:11,933 --> 00:19:13,700 >> IT'S BEEN A VERY INTERESTING 558 00:19:13,700 --> 00:19:14,567 3 1/2 MONTHS. 559 00:19:14,567 --> 00:19:16,300 EVEN MYSELF, I'VE LOST WEIGHT 560 00:19:16,300 --> 00:19:18,133 JUST FROM JUST HAVING TO CHANGE 561 00:19:18,133 --> 00:19:19,133 THE WAY I EAT. 562 00:19:19,133 --> 00:19:21,200 >> HEY, MELISSA. HOW ARE YOU? 563 00:19:21,200 --> 00:19:22,967 >> I'M DOING GREAT. 564 00:19:22,967 --> 00:19:23,733 >> PUT THAT DOWN. 565 00:19:23,733 --> 00:19:25,333 SEE HOW MUCH... 566 00:19:25,333 --> 00:19:27,600 >> IT IS REALLY BOTHERSOME. 567 00:19:27,600 --> 00:19:30,067 IT GETS IN THE WAY A LOT, AND 568 00:19:30,067 --> 00:19:35,733 IT'S VERY HEAVY. 569 00:19:35,733 --> 00:19:38,067 >> WELL, THE GOAL WILL BE TO 570 00:19:38,067 --> 00:19:39,933 TAKE IT OFF IF IT INTERFERES 571 00:19:39,933 --> 00:19:41,567 WITH YOUR WALKING ACTIVITY. 572 00:19:41,567 --> 00:19:42,500 >> THANK YOU. 573 00:19:42,500 --> 00:19:44,500 I HAD A WHOLE LIST OF THINGS 574 00:19:44,500 --> 00:19:46,767 THAT I WAS SO SURE I WANTED WHEN 575 00:19:46,767 --> 00:19:48,733 I STARTED THE SURGERY, AND HOW 576 00:19:48,733 --> 00:19:50,467 THOSE THINGS HAVE CHANGED. 577 00:19:50,467 --> 00:19:52,500 IT'S GONE FROM WANTING TO PUT A 578 00:19:52,500 --> 00:19:55,067 SEAT BELT ON IN A CAR TO OWNING 579 00:19:55,067 --> 00:19:55,833 MY OWN CAR. 580 00:19:55,833 --> 00:19:56,700 [ CHUCKLES ] 581 00:19:56,700 --> 00:19:58,500 >> SHE'S DOING MORE FOR HERSELF 582 00:19:58,500 --> 00:19:58,967 NOW. 583 00:19:58,967 --> 00:20:02,167 SHE'S GETTING HER LIFE BACK. 584 00:20:02,167 --> 00:20:03,833 >> STILL HARD FOR YOU TO DEAL 585 00:20:03,833 --> 00:20:04,733 WITH, THOUGH. 586 00:20:04,733 --> 00:20:05,600 >> SOMETIMES. 587 00:20:05,600 --> 00:20:07,600 IT WAS AN ADJUSTMENT FOR ME, 588 00:20:07,600 --> 00:20:09,367 HAVING TO LET GO OF THAT 589 00:20:09,367 --> 00:20:11,367 CARETAKER ROLE, BECAUSE I'VE 590 00:20:11,367 --> 00:20:13,367 BEEN DOING IT FOR THE BETTER 591 00:20:13,367 --> 00:20:14,733 PART OF SIX YEARS. 592 00:20:14,733 --> 00:20:16,333 >> IT'S VERY HARD ON A 593 00:20:16,333 --> 00:20:17,400 RELATIONSHIP. 594 00:20:17,400 --> 00:20:18,867 EVERY DAY I GET TO HEAR, "DID 595 00:20:18,867 --> 00:20:19,833 YOU USE MY RAZOR? 596 00:20:19,833 --> 00:20:21,400 WHEN DID YOU START SHAVING YOUR 597 00:20:21,400 --> 00:20:22,000 OWN LEGS? 598 00:20:22,000 --> 00:20:23,400 WHO PAINTED YOUR TOENAILS?" 599 00:20:23,400 --> 00:20:24,733 >> I'LL START TRYING TO DO 600 00:20:24,733 --> 00:20:25,733 SOMETHING FOR HER. 601 00:20:25,733 --> 00:20:27,300 SHE WANTS TO DO IT, AND THEN WE 602 00:20:27,300 --> 00:20:28,867 JUST KIND OF GET A LITTLE ANGRY 603 00:20:28,867 --> 00:20:29,700 AT EACH OTHER. 604 00:20:29,700 --> 00:20:31,367 IT'S HARD TO BREAK THE PATTERN. 605 00:20:31,367 --> 00:20:33,000 >> WHEN WE GET IN AN ARGUMENT, 606 00:20:33,000 --> 00:20:34,733 I'M NOW ABLE TO GET UP AND LEAVE 607 00:20:34,733 --> 00:20:35,567 THE ARGUMENT. 608 00:20:35,567 --> 00:20:36,833 IT KIND OF SCARES HIM. 609 00:20:36,833 --> 00:20:38,500 >> TRUE. IT'S TRUE. 610 00:20:38,500 --> 00:20:40,333 I'D HAVE TO AGREE WITH THAT. 611 00:20:40,333 --> 00:20:44,033 >> FOR SO LONG, YOU NEVER HAD TO 612 00:20:44,033 --> 00:20:45,633 WORRY ABOUT WHAT I WAS DOING, 613 00:20:45,633 --> 00:20:47,200 BECAUSE HE KNEW I WAS THERE. 614 00:20:47,200 --> 00:20:48,800 AND NOW HE SEES ME GETTING MY 615 00:20:48,800 --> 00:20:50,433 LIFE BACK, AND HE'S AFRAID I'M 616 00:20:50,433 --> 00:20:52,433 GONNA LEAVE HIM. 617 00:21:02,067 --> 00:21:04,200 >> NOTHING GOOD EVER COMES 618 00:21:04,200 --> 00:21:05,333 WITHOUT A STRUGGLE. 619 00:21:05,333 --> 00:21:07,567 AFTER MY SURGERY, FOOD MADE ME 620 00:21:07,567 --> 00:21:09,200 NAUSEOUS. 621 00:21:09,367 --> 00:21:10,800 BUT AFTER THE FIRST TWO MONTHS, 622 00:21:10,800 --> 00:21:14,200 I WANTED TO EAT. 623 00:21:14,200 --> 00:21:15,800 FIRST INSTINCT WHEN SOMETHING 624 00:21:15,800 --> 00:21:17,267 GOES WRONG IS TO GO TO THE 625 00:21:17,267 --> 00:21:18,133 REFRIGERATOR. 626 00:21:18,133 --> 00:21:20,067 "OOH, I NEED SOMETHING SWEET." 627 00:21:23,500 --> 00:21:24,900 AND THEN I CATCH MYSELF, AND 628 00:21:24,900 --> 00:21:26,367 I'LL BE LIKE, "OKAY, SHUT THE 629 00:21:26,367 --> 00:21:27,133 REFRIGERATOR. 630 00:21:27,133 --> 00:21:28,367 IT'S GOT TO BE SOMETHING 631 00:21:28,367 --> 00:21:29,067 DEEPER." 632 00:21:29,067 --> 00:21:30,967 THAT'S THE WORST THING IS, THE 633 00:21:30,967 --> 00:21:32,700 STILL HAVING TO FIGHT, TO HAVE 634 00:21:32,700 --> 00:21:34,367 TO OPEN THE REFRIGERATOR AND 635 00:21:34,367 --> 00:21:36,100 FIGHT WITH MYSELF TO REACH FOR 636 00:21:36,100 --> 00:21:37,767 SOMETHING THAT'S GOOD FOR ME. 637 00:21:37,767 --> 00:21:40,067 THAT'S MINE, BUT THAT'S A 638 00:21:40,067 --> 00:21:41,233 SECRET. 639 00:21:41,233 --> 00:21:43,267 CHRIS'. DON'T USE. 640 00:21:43,267 --> 00:21:45,067 CHRIS'. CHRIS'. DON'T USE. 641 00:21:45,067 --> 00:21:46,800 BUT I HAVE LIED NOT ONLY TO 642 00:21:46,800 --> 00:21:48,667 MYSELF BUT LIED TO EVERYBODY 643 00:21:48,667 --> 00:21:49,267 ELSE. 644 00:21:49,267 --> 00:21:51,067 AND I'M A VERY GOOD LIAR. 645 00:21:51,067 --> 00:21:53,133 BECAUSE EVERYBODY YOU ASK SAY, 646 00:21:53,133 --> 00:21:55,333 "WELL, I NEVER SEEN HER EAT THAT 647 00:21:55,333 --> 00:21:56,267 MUCH. 648 00:21:56,267 --> 00:21:59,500 SHE NEVER REALLY ATE THAT MUCH." 649 00:21:59,500 --> 00:22:01,100 YOU WANT TO KNOW A SECRET? 650 00:22:01,100 --> 00:22:02,567 IT'S NOT THE YARN BASKET. 651 00:22:02,567 --> 00:22:03,800 IT'S THE TREAT BASKET. 652 00:22:03,800 --> 00:22:05,433 I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M SHOWING YOU 653 00:22:05,433 --> 00:22:05,867 THIS. 654 00:22:05,867 --> 00:22:07,267 I PACK CHRIS' LUNCH IN THE 655 00:22:07,267 --> 00:22:07,867 MORNING. 656 00:22:07,867 --> 00:22:10,133 HE TAKES SNACKS AND TREATS. 657 00:22:10,133 --> 00:22:12,367 SEE? THE GOOD STUFF. 658 00:22:12,367 --> 00:22:14,433 THIS IS THE DEVIL'S FOOD. 659 00:22:14,433 --> 00:22:16,667 THIS IS ILLEGAL CONTRABAND. 660 00:22:16,667 --> 00:22:19,167 IF I SEE THEM, THEN I WANT THEM. 661 00:22:19,167 --> 00:22:20,933 SO I THROW MY YARN DOWN ON TOP 662 00:22:20,933 --> 00:22:23,067 TO KEEP THEM HIDDEN. 663 00:22:23,067 --> 00:22:24,533 LET ME SHOW YOU MY PURSES. 664 00:22:24,533 --> 00:22:25,800 MY PROTECTION PURSE. 665 00:22:25,800 --> 00:22:27,500 I SEE SOMEBODY LOOKING AT ME, 666 00:22:27,500 --> 00:22:32,367 STARING PRETTY HARD... 667 00:22:32,367 --> 00:22:34,100 MY BAG GOES IN FRONT. 668 00:22:34,100 --> 00:22:35,733 AND THIS HAS EVERYTHING IN IT 669 00:22:35,733 --> 00:22:37,133 BUT THE KITCHEN SINK. 670 00:22:37,133 --> 00:22:39,833 DEODORANT. 671 00:22:39,833 --> 00:22:41,200 AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING AS 672 00:22:41,200 --> 00:22:44,400 A FAT WOMAN -- PERFUME SPRAY, 673 00:22:44,400 --> 00:22:46,300 BECAUSE NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES 674 00:22:46,300 --> 00:22:48,233 YOU TAKE A BATH, HOW MUCH YOU 675 00:22:48,233 --> 00:22:51,667 WASH, HOW MUCH YOU TRY... 676 00:22:51,667 --> 00:22:53,700 YOU END UP SMELLING. 677 00:22:53,700 --> 00:22:55,233 WHAT DO I ATTRIBUTE MY WEIGHT 678 00:22:55,233 --> 00:22:55,600 TO? 679 00:22:55,600 --> 00:22:58,667 THE FIRST THING IS EMOTIONS, 680 00:22:58,667 --> 00:23:01,067 BECAUSE I ALWAYS KEPT EVERYTHING 681 00:23:01,067 --> 00:23:01,500 IN. 682 00:23:01,500 --> 00:23:04,833 SURGERY STUFF WAS THE EASY PART. 683 00:23:04,833 --> 00:23:07,200 THE HARD PART IS REALIZING WHERE 684 00:23:07,200 --> 00:23:09,867 YOU WENT WRONG. 685 00:23:09,867 --> 00:23:11,267 THINGS ARE TUCKED AWAY IN THE 686 00:23:11,267 --> 00:23:12,733 BACK OF YOUR MIND FOR A REASON. 687 00:23:12,733 --> 00:23:14,600 THERE'S A PART OF YOU THAT 688 00:23:14,600 --> 00:23:16,667 DISLIKES YOU. 689 00:23:16,667 --> 00:23:20,300 MY WEIGHT WAS MY SHIELD, JUST 690 00:23:20,300 --> 00:23:21,833 LIKE MY PILLOWS AND MY PURSES 691 00:23:21,833 --> 00:23:23,133 ARE MY SHIELD. 692 00:23:23,133 --> 00:23:25,667 TO LOSE THE WEIGHT AND BE HAPPY, 693 00:23:25,667 --> 00:23:27,800 I'M GONNA HAVE TO GO THROUGH 694 00:23:27,800 --> 00:23:30,733 MEMORIES THAT I HAVE PUT IN THE 695 00:23:30,733 --> 00:23:32,967 BACK OF MY MIND, SO I HAVE TO 696 00:23:32,967 --> 00:23:34,133 DEAL WITH THOSE ISSUES. 697 00:23:34,133 --> 00:23:35,300 I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE. 698 00:23:35,300 --> 00:23:36,867 I DON'T WANT TO BE OVERWEIGHT 699 00:23:36,867 --> 00:23:38,767 FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. 700 00:23:46,600 --> 00:23:48,933 SIX MONTHS AFTER MY SURGERY, I 701 00:23:48,933 --> 00:23:50,733 DECIDED TO FLY TO MY HOMETOWN 702 00:23:50,733 --> 00:23:52,633 FOR A FAMILY REUNION, AND I WAS 703 00:23:52,633 --> 00:23:54,300 TERRIFIED. 704 00:23:54,467 --> 00:23:56,733 FOR SEVERAL YEARS, I WAS TOO 705 00:23:56,733 --> 00:23:59,067 ASHAMED TO GO TO ANY KIND OF 706 00:23:59,067 --> 00:24:01,067 FAMILY FUNCTIONS. 707 00:24:01,067 --> 00:24:02,700 MOST PEOPLE MY WEIGHT SHUT 708 00:24:02,700 --> 00:24:04,967 THEIRSELF OFF FOR YEARS. 709 00:24:04,967 --> 00:24:07,067 I'M NERVOUS TO SEE MY FAMILY. 710 00:24:07,067 --> 00:24:08,800 I'M NERVOUS OF FLYING. 711 00:24:08,967 --> 00:24:11,567 >> WHERE ARE YOU GOING? 712 00:24:11,567 --> 00:24:13,067 >> AT THAT POINT, I HAD LOST 713 00:24:13,067 --> 00:24:14,433 200 POUNDS, SO I WAS STILL 714 00:24:14,433 --> 00:24:15,900 400-PLUS POUNDS. 715 00:24:15,900 --> 00:24:17,100 IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAD BEEN 716 00:24:17,100 --> 00:24:18,200 ON AN AIRPLANE IN I DON'T KNOW 717 00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:20,633 HOW LONG. 718 00:24:20,633 --> 00:24:23,933 >> YOU KNOW HOW THAT WORKS? 719 00:24:24,100 --> 00:24:25,400 >> I HAVE TWO SEATS. 720 00:24:25,400 --> 00:24:26,267 [ CHUCKLES ] 721 00:24:26,267 --> 00:24:27,433 IT'S EMBARRASSING. 722 00:24:27,600 --> 00:24:29,167 [ SNIFFLES ] 723 00:24:29,167 --> 00:24:32,200 I'M JUST MAD. 724 00:24:32,367 --> 00:24:35,467 AND A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE LOOKING. 725 00:24:35,467 --> 00:24:37,767 PEOPLE LOOK AT ME WITH SUCH 726 00:24:37,767 --> 00:24:42,333 DISGUST IN THEIR FACE AND EYES. 727 00:24:42,333 --> 00:24:43,400 IT'S JUST HARD. 728 00:24:43,400 --> 00:24:45,233 I DON'T LIKE TO BE IN PUBLIC. 729 00:24:45,233 --> 00:24:47,600 I'VE BEEN HIDING FOR 12 YEARS OF 730 00:24:47,600 --> 00:24:52,200 MY LIFE. 731 00:24:52,200 --> 00:24:53,400 [ SNIFFLES ] 732 00:24:53,400 --> 00:24:58,700 AND SO COMING OUT IS HARD. 733 00:24:58,700 --> 00:25:01,800 BE NICE JUST TO BE OVER WITH. 734 00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:02,467 [ Sighing ] OH. 735 00:25:02,467 --> 00:25:03,567 AND I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE 736 00:25:03,567 --> 00:25:03,967 FLIGHT. 737 00:25:03,967 --> 00:25:05,067 I'M TALKING ABOUT THIS WEIGHT 738 00:25:05,067 --> 00:25:07,733 LOSS, JUST TO HAVE A LIFE AGAIN 739 00:25:07,733 --> 00:25:10,067 WITHOUT HAVING TO BE LOOKED AT 740 00:25:10,067 --> 00:25:13,733 LIKE I'M SOME FREAK. 741 00:25:13,733 --> 00:25:15,633 [ SNIFFLES ] 742 00:25:28,500 --> 00:25:30,167 MY FAMILY IS SO CLOSE-KNIT THAT 743 00:25:30,167 --> 00:25:31,867 THEY ALL LIVE IN ONE CENTRAL 744 00:25:31,867 --> 00:25:32,667 AREA. 745 00:25:32,667 --> 00:25:36,367 AND IN '97, I MOVED AWAY, SO A 746 00:25:36,367 --> 00:25:38,467 LOT OF PEOPLE HAVEN'T SEEN ME. 747 00:25:38,467 --> 00:25:40,233 IT'S BEEN A LONG WHILE. 748 00:25:40,233 --> 00:25:42,300 I STOPPED GOING TO ALL FAMILY 749 00:25:42,300 --> 00:25:43,233 FUNCTIONS. 750 00:25:43,233 --> 00:25:46,167 I STAYED IN ONE ROOM, BASICALLY. 751 00:25:46,167 --> 00:25:48,400 I'M GONNA HAVE TO FACE MY FEARS, 752 00:25:48,400 --> 00:25:50,500 AND ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEARS IS 753 00:25:50,500 --> 00:25:52,067 LETTING MY FAMILY DOWN. 754 00:25:52,067 --> 00:25:53,533 I'M AFRAID THEY'RE GONNA SEE ME 755 00:25:53,533 --> 00:25:56,633 AND NOT APPRECIATE WHERE I'VE 756 00:25:56,633 --> 00:25:57,533 CAME FROM. 757 00:25:57,533 --> 00:25:59,533 I JUST DON'T WANT TO LET THEM 758 00:25:59,533 --> 00:26:01,500 DOWN. 759 00:26:08,400 --> 00:26:10,933 >> [ CRYING ] 760 00:26:10,933 --> 00:26:12,600 MY MOM COULDN'T BELIEVE I WAS 761 00:26:12,600 --> 00:26:14,200 WALKING, 'CAUSE IT HAD BEEN 762 00:26:14,200 --> 00:26:15,867 YEARS SINCE SHE'D SEEN ME WALK. 763 00:26:15,867 --> 00:26:18,533 WHY ARE YOU CRYING? 764 00:26:18,533 --> 00:26:20,233 >> NEVER SEEN YOU WALK THAT FAR. 765 00:26:20,233 --> 00:26:21,800 >> YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW FAR. 766 00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:24,500 >> YES, I DO. 767 00:26:24,500 --> 00:26:27,167 I'M SO HAPPY TO SEE HER WALKING. 768 00:26:27,167 --> 00:26:28,833 OH, MY GOD. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. 769 00:26:28,833 --> 00:26:30,167 I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT. 770 00:26:30,167 --> 00:26:33,267 IT'S SO UNREAL. 771 00:26:33,267 --> 00:26:34,300 >> MAKE IT? 772 00:26:34,300 --> 00:26:36,767 >> CAN YOU HOLD THIS DOOR, MOM? 773 00:26:38,167 --> 00:26:40,233 >> I GOT IT, I GOT IT. 774 00:26:40,233 --> 00:26:42,867 >> I'M GONNA FIT! [ LAUGHS ] 775 00:26:42,867 --> 00:26:44,067 >> [ CHUCKLES ] 776 00:26:44,067 --> 00:26:45,767 SHE'S LIKE, "AH, I FIT!" 777 00:26:45,767 --> 00:26:49,600 [ LAUGHS ] 778 00:26:49,600 --> 00:26:52,500 >> [ SNIFFLES ] 779 00:26:52,500 --> 00:26:56,133 >> YOU OKAY? 780 00:26:56,133 --> 00:26:57,667 YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES YOU'D 781 00:26:57,667 --> 00:26:59,367 COME HOME, AND WHEN YOU'D LEAVE, 782 00:26:59,367 --> 00:27:00,867 YOUR DAD WOULD CRY AND SAY, 783 00:27:00,867 --> 00:27:02,233 "I'LL NEVER SEE HER ALIVE 784 00:27:02,233 --> 00:27:02,900 AGAIN"? 785 00:27:02,900 --> 00:27:04,833 >> I WAS AFRAID THAT YOU WOULD 786 00:27:04,833 --> 00:27:06,767 BE DISAPPOINTED. 787 00:27:06,767 --> 00:27:08,533 >> AFRAID I'D BE DISAPPOINTED? 788 00:27:08,533 --> 00:27:09,167 >> YEAH. 789 00:27:09,167 --> 00:27:10,633 >> I MEAN, SCALES AT THE 790 00:27:10,633 --> 00:27:12,133 DOCTOR'S DOESN'T LIE, DO THEY? 791 00:27:12,133 --> 00:27:13,700 >> NO, BUT IT JUST DOESN'T FEEL 792 00:27:13,700 --> 00:27:15,233 LIKE IT'S THAT MUCH WHEN YOU'VE 793 00:27:15,233 --> 00:27:16,433 GOT SO MUCH MORE TO GO. 794 00:27:21,600 --> 00:27:22,833 IT'S WONDERFUL TO FINALLY SEE 795 00:27:22,833 --> 00:27:24,733 MY FAMILY AGAIN. 796 00:27:24,733 --> 00:27:26,467 BUT DEEP DOWN, I WAS EXTREMELY 797 00:27:26,467 --> 00:27:28,300 ASHAMED OVER ALL THE WEIGHT THAT 798 00:27:28,300 --> 00:27:31,300 I HAD LET MYSELF PUT ON. 799 00:27:31,300 --> 00:27:32,967 AND MY NEPHEW, BLESS HIS HEART, 800 00:27:32,967 --> 00:27:34,700 HE ALWAYS SAYS, "AUNT LISSA, ARE 801 00:27:34,700 --> 00:27:35,933 YOU SKINNY YET?" 802 00:27:35,933 --> 00:27:37,067 [ CHUCKLES ] 803 00:27:37,067 --> 00:27:39,233 HE THINKS THAT THE SURGERY JUST 804 00:27:39,233 --> 00:27:41,100 MADE ME SKINNY INSTANTLY. 805 00:27:41,100 --> 00:27:43,933 I CANNOT WAIT, WAIT, WAIT, WAIT 806 00:27:43,933 --> 00:27:44,900 UNTIL DAD SEES ME. 807 00:27:44,900 --> 00:27:47,067 I THINK HE'LL BE SURPRISED. 808 00:27:51,600 --> 00:27:53,267 YOU START TO REALIZE THINGS YOU 809 00:27:53,267 --> 00:27:54,700 DIDN'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT 810 00:27:54,700 --> 00:27:56,433 BEFORE, HOW MUCH LIFE HAS PASSED 811 00:27:56,433 --> 00:27:58,233 YOU BY, HOW MUCH YOU MISSED. 812 00:27:58,233 --> 00:27:59,333 >> SURPRISE! 813 00:27:59,333 --> 00:28:01,967 >> SURPRISE! 814 00:28:01,967 --> 00:28:03,800 I HAVE 12 NIECES AND NEPHEWS, 815 00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:05,500 WHO I LOVE DEARLY, BUT I'VE 816 00:28:05,500 --> 00:28:06,533 MISSED OUT ON THEM. 817 00:28:06,533 --> 00:28:08,067 [ Voice breaking ] I DIDN'T GO 818 00:28:08,067 --> 00:28:09,900 TO THEIR SPORTING EVENTS. 819 00:28:09,900 --> 00:28:11,867 I DIDN'T GO TO HIGH-SCHOOL 820 00:28:11,867 --> 00:28:13,967 GRADUATIONS, 'CAUSE I WAS 821 00:28:13,967 --> 00:28:15,300 EMBARRASSED. 822 00:28:15,467 --> 00:28:16,967 >> I CAN TELL SHE'S LOST A LOT 823 00:28:16,967 --> 00:28:17,633 OF WEIGHT. 824 00:28:17,633 --> 00:28:18,167 >> I CRIED. 825 00:28:18,167 --> 00:28:19,333 THEY'RE LIKE, "MICHELLE, ARE YOU 826 00:28:19,333 --> 00:28:19,867 ALL RIGHT?" 827 00:28:19,867 --> 00:28:21,800 I'M LIKE, "LOOK AT MY SISTER!" 828 00:28:22,067 --> 00:28:24,267 >> MELISSA, JUST COME HERE 829 00:28:24,267 --> 00:28:25,067 TO ME. 830 00:28:25,067 --> 00:28:26,467 >> IT'S GREAT HAVING HER HOME, 831 00:28:26,467 --> 00:28:28,333 HAVING ALL THESE KIDS AROUND 832 00:28:28,333 --> 00:28:28,833 HER. 833 00:28:28,833 --> 00:28:29,733 ABSOLUTELY GREAT. 834 00:28:29,733 --> 00:28:31,267 >> I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU LET THIS 835 00:28:31,267 --> 00:28:33,400 BABY EAT PIZZA. 836 00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:35,767 >> SHE LOVES HER NIECES AND 837 00:28:35,767 --> 00:28:37,633 NEPHEWS SO, SO MUCH. 838 00:28:37,633 --> 00:28:39,267 SHE CAN ACTUALLY PLAY WITH THEM 839 00:28:39,267 --> 00:28:40,567 AND DO THINGS WITH THEM. 840 00:28:40,567 --> 00:28:41,667 I HOPE THAT SHE CAN 841 00:28:41,667 --> 00:28:42,733 EVENTUALLY HAVE A BABY OF HER 842 00:28:42,733 --> 00:28:48,067 OWN, 'CAUSE SHE LOVES CHILDREN. 843 00:28:48,067 --> 00:28:49,267 [ LAUGHTER ] 844 00:28:49,267 --> 00:28:51,500 [ GUITAR PLAYS UP-TEMPO MUSIC ] 845 00:29:02,500 --> 00:29:03,467 >> TIME. 846 00:29:03,467 --> 00:29:05,633 >> TIME'S UP! 847 00:29:05,633 --> 00:29:06,933 AW. 848 00:29:06,933 --> 00:29:09,767 >> I'M REALLY NERVOUS. 849 00:29:09,767 --> 00:29:10,967 OH, MY GOD. 850 00:29:10,967 --> 00:29:13,667 IT'S VERY HARD FOR ME TO LET MY 851 00:29:13,667 --> 00:29:16,400 AUNTS AND UNCLES AND COUSINS SEE 852 00:29:16,400 --> 00:29:18,100 ME LOOK THE WAY I LOOK, EVEN 853 00:29:18,100 --> 00:29:19,967 AFTER LOSING SOME OF THE WEIGHT 854 00:29:19,967 --> 00:29:21,733 FROM THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 855 00:29:21,733 --> 00:29:24,367 'CAUSE I'M STILL NOT A NORMAL 856 00:29:24,367 --> 00:29:25,233 PERSON'S SIZE. 857 00:29:25,233 --> 00:29:26,767 >> LAST TIME I SEEN HER, SHE 858 00:29:26,767 --> 00:29:27,667 COULDN'T WALK. 859 00:29:27,833 --> 00:29:28,933 I'M JUST TICKLED TO DEATH TO SEE 860 00:29:28,933 --> 00:29:31,067 YOU WALK. 861 00:29:31,067 --> 00:29:32,467 YOU'RE COMING INTO IT. 862 00:29:32,467 --> 00:29:33,733 >> I'M TRYING REAL HARD. 863 00:29:33,733 --> 00:29:34,767 >> THAT'S THE WAY. 864 00:29:34,767 --> 00:29:35,733 I'M PROUD OF YOU. 865 00:29:35,733 --> 00:29:36,833 >> THANK YOU, PA PA. 866 00:29:36,833 --> 00:29:37,900 >> SHE LOOKS GREAT. 867 00:29:37,900 --> 00:29:39,600 IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD. 868 00:29:39,600 --> 00:29:41,267 IT TAKES A LOT OF WORRIES OFF MY 869 00:29:41,267 --> 00:29:42,233 MIND. 870 00:29:44,533 --> 00:29:46,100 >> EVERYBODY, GET OFF! 871 00:29:46,100 --> 00:29:50,233 MELISSA'S GONNA SLIDE! 872 00:29:50,233 --> 00:29:52,100 >> YOU WANT TO START MOVING ON 873 00:29:52,100 --> 00:29:54,100 WITH YOUR LIFE BECAUSE IT'S BEEN 874 00:29:54,100 --> 00:29:56,867 ON PAUSE FOR SO LONG. 875 00:29:56,867 --> 00:29:59,900 BUT IT'S NOT AS EASY AS THAT. 876 00:29:59,900 --> 00:30:03,167 AAH! [ LAUGHS ] 877 00:30:03,167 --> 00:30:05,067 [ LAUGHTER ] 878 00:30:11,833 --> 00:30:13,600 MY BUSINESS IS COMING OFF! 879 00:30:13,600 --> 00:30:15,300 [ LAUGHTER ] 880 00:30:15,300 --> 00:30:17,633 >> WAIT, WAIT, WAIT. 881 00:30:17,633 --> 00:30:19,533 [ LAUGHTER ] 882 00:30:24,633 --> 00:30:25,667 >> SHE'S OVER THERE. 883 00:30:25,667 --> 00:30:26,667 LOOK, SHE'S RIGHT THERE. 884 00:30:26,667 --> 00:30:27,900 LOOK. 885 00:30:27,900 --> 00:30:31,867 [ LAUGHTER ] 886 00:30:31,867 --> 00:30:32,733 >> LET'S GO. 887 00:30:32,733 --> 00:30:34,200 >> OH, YOU'RE ALL RIGHT. 888 00:30:34,200 --> 00:30:35,233 >> [ SNIFFLES ] 889 00:30:35,233 --> 00:30:36,367 >> LET'S GO IN THE HOUSE. 890 00:30:36,367 --> 00:30:37,633 >> [ Voice breaking ] I'M ALL 891 00:30:37,633 --> 00:30:38,033 RIGHT. 892 00:30:38,033 --> 00:30:38,667 >> DON'T CRY. 893 00:30:38,667 --> 00:30:39,933 >> THEY EMBARRASSED HER AS MUCH 894 00:30:39,933 --> 00:30:41,033 AS THEY DID ON THAT THING. 895 00:30:41,033 --> 00:30:42,067 >> IT'S HARD. 896 00:30:42,233 --> 00:30:44,533 IT'S LIKE, YOU KNOW, A LITTLE 897 00:30:44,533 --> 00:30:46,400 ACCOMPLISHMENT, AND THEN 898 00:30:46,400 --> 00:30:48,633 SOMETHING LIKE THIS JUST TAKES 899 00:30:48,633 --> 00:30:52,567 IT AWAY. 900 00:30:52,733 --> 00:30:55,600 I'M SO HAPPY THAT I WENT TO THE 901 00:30:55,600 --> 00:30:57,133 CELEBRATION. 902 00:30:57,133 --> 00:30:59,067 BUT I HAVE TO ADMIT, I NEED TO 903 00:30:59,067 --> 00:31:00,500 STOP WANTING INSTANT 904 00:31:00,500 --> 00:31:02,500 GRATIFICATION. 905 00:31:02,500 --> 00:31:03,900 IT'LL COME IN TIME. 906 00:31:03,900 --> 00:31:05,967 I'M GONNA KEEP WORKING, 'CAUSE 907 00:31:05,967 --> 00:31:07,600 IT WILL COME IN TIME. 908 00:31:07,600 --> 00:31:08,533 [ SNIFFLES ] 909 00:31:16,933 --> 00:31:19,600 >> I FEAR FAILURE EVERY DAY. 910 00:31:19,600 --> 00:31:22,800 BUT IF I LET THAT GET ME, THEN I 911 00:31:22,800 --> 00:31:24,100 WOULD EASILY BE BACK UP TO 912 00:31:24,100 --> 00:31:26,333 600 POUNDS. 913 00:31:36,533 --> 00:31:38,933 I'VE LOST 210 POUNDS, BUT I'M 914 00:31:38,933 --> 00:31:40,600 STILL FAT. 915 00:31:40,600 --> 00:31:44,067 SEE THIS? 916 00:31:44,067 --> 00:31:46,633 THAT ABSOLUTELY GROSSES ME OUT. 917 00:31:46,633 --> 00:31:48,067 I CAN'T STAND TO LOOK AT MYSELF 918 00:31:48,067 --> 00:31:48,833 IN THE MIRROR. 919 00:31:48,833 --> 00:31:50,067 IT JIGGLES. 920 00:31:50,067 --> 00:31:52,067 LIKE, TERRIBLY JIGGLES. 921 00:31:52,067 --> 00:31:54,600 YEAH, I CAN LIFT, AND IT'S 922 00:31:54,600 --> 00:31:56,500 JUST LIKE, "UGH." 923 00:32:02,833 --> 00:32:04,067 THIS IS ONE OF THE THINGS I 924 00:32:04,067 --> 00:32:05,267 CAN'T WAIT FOR HIM TO REMOVE, 925 00:32:05,267 --> 00:32:06,500 BUT IT'S EMBARRASSING AT THE 926 00:32:06,500 --> 00:32:07,933 SAME TIME TO SHOW YOU. 927 00:32:07,933 --> 00:32:11,400 IT'S JUST A FAT PACK OF SKIN AND 928 00:32:11,400 --> 00:32:12,233 FAT. 929 00:32:12,233 --> 00:32:13,833 ISN'T THAT DISGUSTING? 930 00:32:13,833 --> 00:32:15,067 AND IT WAS BIGGER. 931 00:32:15,067 --> 00:32:17,067 ON FRIDAY, HE'S GOING TO REMOVE 932 00:32:17,067 --> 00:32:18,700 THE FAT PACK AND THEN SOME 933 00:32:18,700 --> 00:32:20,933 STOMACH SKIN. 934 00:32:20,933 --> 00:32:22,667 I CANNOT WAIT. 935 00:32:22,667 --> 00:32:27,333 I CANNOT WAIT. 936 00:32:27,333 --> 00:32:28,700 >> JUST A SECOND, MISS MELISSA, 937 00:32:28,700 --> 00:32:29,800 OKAY, HONEY? 938 00:32:29,800 --> 00:32:31,333 >> OW. 939 00:32:31,333 --> 00:32:32,600 >> I'M SORRY. 940 00:32:32,600 --> 00:32:34,167 >> MELISSA, IT'S OKAY. 941 00:32:34,167 --> 00:32:36,100 >> GOING INTO SURGERY, I WAS 942 00:32:36,100 --> 00:32:36,733 SCARED TO DEATH. 943 00:32:36,733 --> 00:32:37,533 >> HOW ARE YOU TODAY? 944 00:32:37,533 --> 00:32:38,533 >> [ Voice breaking ] IT WAS 945 00:32:38,533 --> 00:32:41,067 EASIER LAST TIME. 946 00:32:41,067 --> 00:32:43,767 >> OKAY. 947 00:32:43,767 --> 00:32:46,733 >> I WAS CRYING HYSTERICALLY. 948 00:32:46,733 --> 00:32:49,333 JUST REALLY SCARED. 949 00:32:49,333 --> 00:32:50,567 I DON'T REMEMBER BEING THIS 950 00:32:50,567 --> 00:32:53,267 SCARED LAST TIME. 951 00:32:53,267 --> 00:32:54,700 WHAT IS THAT SAYING? 952 00:32:54,700 --> 00:32:56,067 "NO PAIN, NO GAIN." 953 00:32:56,067 --> 00:32:57,067 [ CHUCKLES ] 954 00:32:57,067 --> 00:32:58,900 IN MY CASE, "NO PAIN, NO LOSS." 955 00:32:58,900 --> 00:32:59,900 [ CHUCKLES ] 956 00:32:59,900 --> 00:33:01,633 DR. NOWZARADAN ASKED ME 957 00:33:01,633 --> 00:33:02,967 THREE TIMES OUTSIDE THE 958 00:33:02,967 --> 00:33:04,533 OPERATING ROOM IF I WAS SURE 959 00:33:04,533 --> 00:33:06,300 THAT I WANTED TO GO THROUGH WITH 960 00:33:06,300 --> 00:33:06,767 THIS. 961 00:33:06,767 --> 00:33:09,667 I WAS SO SCARED, BUT I WAS 962 00:33:09,667 --> 00:33:11,600 READY. 963 00:33:15,467 --> 00:33:18,433 >> TODAY, WE'RE GONNA TAKE SOME 964 00:33:18,433 --> 00:33:22,100 EXCESSIVE SKIN OFF OF MELISSA'S 965 00:33:22,100 --> 00:33:24,767 THIGH AND ABDOMEN, TO HELP HER 966 00:33:24,767 --> 00:33:26,867 TO BE ABLE TO MOVE AROUND AND 967 00:33:26,867 --> 00:33:29,167 WALK BETTER. 968 00:33:29,167 --> 00:33:31,400 >> I ALWAYS SAY THEY DID SURGERY 969 00:33:31,400 --> 00:33:32,667 ON MY STOMACH, BUT HE REALLY 970 00:33:32,667 --> 00:33:35,067 SHOULD HAVE DONE IT ON MY BRAIN, 971 00:33:35,067 --> 00:33:39,067 BECAUSE IT GOES THAT DEEP. 972 00:33:39,067 --> 00:33:40,667 THE ROOT OF MY PROBLEMS GO TO 973 00:33:40,667 --> 00:33:43,133 CHILDHOOD. 974 00:33:43,133 --> 00:33:45,267 EVERY SINGLE POUND THAT WAS ON 975 00:33:45,267 --> 00:33:48,100 MY BODY WAS AN EMOTION OF 976 00:33:48,100 --> 00:33:50,267 SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED IN MY 977 00:33:50,267 --> 00:33:52,167 LIFE. 978 00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:56,800 WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, I WAS 979 00:33:56,800 --> 00:33:59,567 MOLESTED. 980 00:33:59,567 --> 00:34:02,067 FOR THE LONGEST TIME, I BLAMED 981 00:34:02,067 --> 00:34:04,300 MYSELF INSTEAD OF BLAMING THE 982 00:34:04,300 --> 00:34:07,100 PERSON WHO REALLY DID IT. 983 00:34:07,100 --> 00:34:08,800 HOW A PERSON COULD DO THAT TO A 984 00:34:08,800 --> 00:34:11,767 CHILD, I DON'T KNOW. 985 00:34:11,767 --> 00:34:14,400 AND MINE WEREN'T GROWN ADULTS. 986 00:34:14,400 --> 00:34:15,867 THEY WERE OLDER, BUT THEY 987 00:34:15,867 --> 00:34:17,133 WEREN'T GROWN ADULTS. 988 00:34:17,133 --> 00:34:19,567 THEY WERE TEENAGERS -- 16, 17, 989 00:34:19,567 --> 00:34:22,833 18 -- I DON'T KNOW EXACTLY. 990 00:34:22,833 --> 00:34:25,267 I WAS YOUNG ENOUGH -- I THINK I 991 00:34:25,267 --> 00:34:27,800 WAS IN SECOND, THIRD GRADE, SO 992 00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:30,133 I DON'T THINK THAT I CONSCIOUSLY 993 00:34:30,133 --> 00:34:32,400 THOUGHT, "I'M GONNA GET FAT AND 994 00:34:32,400 --> 00:34:34,567 THEY WON'T DO IT." 995 00:34:34,567 --> 00:34:36,433 I'VE NEVER HAD THE GUTS TO SAY 996 00:34:36,433 --> 00:34:38,267 ANYTHING TO THE TWO PEOPLE WHO 997 00:34:38,267 --> 00:34:39,533 DONE IT. 998 00:34:39,533 --> 00:34:43,067 BUT IF I DID, THE FIRST THING I 999 00:34:43,067 --> 00:34:46,733 WOULD SAY TO THEM IS, "YOU ARE 1000 00:34:46,733 --> 00:34:52,800 A MAJOR PART -- A MAJOR PART OF 1001 00:34:52,800 --> 00:34:55,067 WHY I AM LIKE I AM TODAY." 1002 00:34:59,500 --> 00:35:01,500 I AM THE FIRST PERSON TO SAY I 1003 00:35:01,500 --> 00:35:05,433 GOT LIKE I AM BECAUSE OF ME. 1004 00:35:05,433 --> 00:35:12,067 BUT THAT IS A MAJOR PART. 1005 00:35:12,067 --> 00:35:15,467 I NEVER DEALT WITH THE HURT. 1006 00:35:15,467 --> 00:35:18,767 IT WAS JUST THERE. 1007 00:35:18,767 --> 00:35:23,133 OH, GOSH. IT HURTS. 1008 00:35:23,133 --> 00:35:23,800 >> I THINK THEY SAID THEY 1009 00:35:23,800 --> 00:35:27,133 STARTED AT 9:30, SO 6 HOURS TO 1010 00:35:27,133 --> 00:35:30,067 GET OFF 60 POUNDS. 1011 00:35:30,067 --> 00:35:31,733 >> IT'S THE FINAL PRODUCT. 1012 00:35:31,733 --> 00:35:32,700 >> WOW. OKAY. 1013 00:35:32,700 --> 00:35:33,733 >> THAT'S A LOT OF SKIN. 1014 00:35:33,733 --> 00:35:34,967 >> NOW, DOES THAT GO ON ICE OR 1015 00:35:34,967 --> 00:35:35,500 SOMETHING? 1016 00:35:35,500 --> 00:35:35,933 >> YES. 1017 00:35:35,933 --> 00:35:37,833 >> YEAH. 1018 00:35:47,800 --> 00:35:51,933 >> HURTS SO BAD. 1019 00:35:51,933 --> 00:35:53,667 DO I LOOK DIFFERENT? 1020 00:35:53,667 --> 00:35:55,700 >> YEAH, YOU DO. 1021 00:35:55,700 --> 00:35:56,733 YOU DO. 1022 00:35:56,733 --> 00:35:59,367 >> [ TALKING INDISTINCTLY ] 1023 00:35:59,367 --> 00:36:01,567 >> I'M VERY PROUD OF HER. 1024 00:36:01,567 --> 00:36:04,100 I'M GLAD THAT SHE DECIDED TO DO 1025 00:36:04,100 --> 00:36:06,067 IT AND DIDN'T BACK OUT AND HAD 1026 00:36:06,067 --> 00:36:07,900 THE COURAGE TO GO THROUGH IT. 1027 00:36:07,900 --> 00:36:09,900 I'M VERY PROUD OF HER. 1028 00:36:09,900 --> 00:36:11,100 >> IT'S FUNNY TO BE ABLE TO SEE 1029 00:36:11,100 --> 00:36:11,733 MY LAP. 1030 00:36:11,733 --> 00:36:12,900 >> SHE LOOKS GOOD. 1031 00:36:12,900 --> 00:36:15,067 >> MY LEGS LOOK HUGE NOW. 1032 00:36:15,067 --> 00:36:16,400 [ CHUCKLES ] 1033 00:36:16,400 --> 00:36:18,100 THEY WEIGHED ME THIS MORNING, 1034 00:36:18,100 --> 00:36:19,667 AND SHE'S LIKE, YOU'RE 389 1035 00:36:19,667 --> 00:36:20,667 POUNDS. 1036 00:36:20,833 --> 00:36:22,300 389 POUNDS. 1037 00:36:22,300 --> 00:36:24,067 IT'S BEEN 10 YEARS SINCE I'VE 1038 00:36:24,067 --> 00:36:26,600 BEEN 389 POUNDS. 1039 00:36:26,767 --> 00:36:29,667 IT WAS JUST EXCITING TO BE UNDER 1040 00:36:29,667 --> 00:36:30,600 400 POUNDS. 1041 00:36:30,600 --> 00:36:32,100 OH, IT'S SO EXCITING. 1042 00:36:32,100 --> 00:36:33,733 >> I'M JUST DOING THAT. 1043 00:36:33,733 --> 00:36:35,767 SHE SAID THAT DRESS DEFINITELY 1044 00:36:35,767 --> 00:36:37,833 LOOKS DIFFERENT ON HER NOW THAN 1045 00:36:37,833 --> 00:36:39,400 WHEN SHE CAME IN HERE. 1046 00:36:39,400 --> 00:36:40,300 >> YES! 1047 00:36:40,300 --> 00:36:42,767 >> IT'S NICE TO REALIZE THAT 1048 00:36:42,767 --> 00:36:44,833 THERE'S A WHOLE LOT LESS OF ME. 1049 00:36:44,833 --> 00:36:46,667 IF I HAD OPENED MY EYES AND 1050 00:36:46,667 --> 00:36:48,800 REALIZED WHAT I REALIZE NOW, I'D 1051 00:36:48,800 --> 00:36:51,233 NEVER BE IN THIS SITUATION. 1052 00:36:51,233 --> 00:36:53,867 I, EVERY DAY, WAKE UP AND SAY, 1053 00:36:53,867 --> 00:36:57,067 "I NEED A REASON NOT TO EAT A 1054 00:36:57,067 --> 00:36:58,233 PIECE OF CAKE TODAY. 1055 00:36:58,233 --> 00:36:59,767 I NEED A REASON NOT TO EAT A 1056 00:36:59,767 --> 00:37:01,167 GALLON OF ICE CREAM TODAY." 1057 00:37:01,167 --> 00:37:02,267 >> ALL RIGHT, LADIES. 1058 00:37:02,267 --> 00:37:03,333 THANK YOU VERY MUCH. 1059 00:37:03,333 --> 00:37:05,233 WE'LL SEE Y'ALL NEXT TIME. 1060 00:37:05,233 --> 00:37:06,700 >> MY MAIN REASON FOR DOING IT 1061 00:37:06,700 --> 00:37:08,633 IS LIVING. 1062 00:37:14,300 --> 00:37:15,833 >> GET DOWN. 1063 00:37:15,833 --> 00:37:17,233 SOMETIMES I LOOK IN THE MIRROR 1064 00:37:17,233 --> 00:37:19,600 AND I DON'T KNOW THE FACE 1065 00:37:19,600 --> 00:37:21,667 LOOKING AT ME, BECAUSE I DON'T 1066 00:37:21,667 --> 00:37:23,500 REMEMBER LOOKING LIKE THIS 1067 00:37:23,500 --> 00:37:25,500 BEFORE. 1068 00:37:28,867 --> 00:37:30,833 THE LAST TIME THAT I HAD A PAIR 1069 00:37:30,833 --> 00:37:32,200 OF BLUE JEANS ON WAS 1070 00:37:32,200 --> 00:37:34,067 APRIL 1, 1999. 1071 00:37:34,067 --> 00:37:36,767 OH, MY GOSH! THEY FASTEN. 1072 00:37:36,767 --> 00:37:39,100 [ CHUCKLES ] 1073 00:37:39,100 --> 00:37:40,100 I GOT JEANS ON. 1074 00:37:40,100 --> 00:37:41,967 I FEEL LIKE I'M STARTING A WHOLE 1075 00:37:41,967 --> 00:37:43,633 NEW LIFE, THAT I'M GETTING A 1076 00:37:43,633 --> 00:37:44,700 SECOND CHANCE. 1077 00:37:44,700 --> 00:37:46,633 THE FIRST TIME I WEIGHED IN AT 1078 00:37:46,633 --> 00:37:48,567 THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE, I WEIGHED 1079 00:37:48,567 --> 00:37:52,367 IN AT 653 POUNDS. 1080 00:37:52,533 --> 00:37:53,600 [ LAUGHS ] 1081 00:37:53,600 --> 00:37:57,467 >> I TOLD YOU. I TOLD YOU. 1082 00:37:57,467 --> 00:37:59,767 >> YOU'RE DOING GREAT. 1083 00:38:00,067 --> 00:38:01,067 >> I'VE BEEN TELLING YOU ALL 1084 00:38:01,067 --> 00:38:01,667 WEEK. 1085 00:38:01,667 --> 00:38:04,067 >> IT'S LIKE, I'M HALF THE WOMAN 1086 00:38:04,067 --> 00:38:05,267 I USED TO BE. 1087 00:38:05,267 --> 00:38:07,667 I'M JUST HALF THE PERSON I USED 1088 00:38:07,667 --> 00:38:09,567 TO BE. 1089 00:38:16,467 --> 00:38:18,933 THIS IS MY FOURTH OUTFIT TODAY. 1090 00:38:18,933 --> 00:38:20,167 >> PLEASE, CAN WE JUST GET 1091 00:38:20,167 --> 00:38:20,967 GOING? 1092 00:38:20,967 --> 00:38:22,700 >> I'M GOING TO TAKE MY DRIVER'S 1093 00:38:22,700 --> 00:38:23,167 TEST. 1094 00:38:23,167 --> 00:38:24,867 THE COOL THING ABOUT ME GETTING 1095 00:38:24,867 --> 00:38:26,367 MY DRIVER'S LICENSE IS I'LL 1096 00:38:26,367 --> 00:38:29,967 NEVER BE HOME. 1097 00:38:29,967 --> 00:38:31,867 >> [ SIGHS ] 1098 00:38:36,300 --> 00:38:37,500 >> DO YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS 1099 00:38:37,500 --> 00:38:38,267 BEFORE WE BEGIN? 1100 00:38:38,267 --> 00:38:39,633 >> I GUESS I JUST WANT HER TO DO 1101 00:38:39,633 --> 00:38:40,700 GOOD AND GET HER DRIVER'S 1102 00:38:40,700 --> 00:38:42,067 LICENSE BACK SO I DON'T HAVE TO 1103 00:38:42,067 --> 00:38:43,300 [Chuckling] DO ALL THE DRIVING 1104 00:38:43,300 --> 00:38:46,067 ANYMORE. 1105 00:38:46,067 --> 00:38:49,200 >> I AM VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY 1106 00:38:49,200 --> 00:38:49,767 HAPPY. 1107 00:38:49,767 --> 00:38:50,767 >> IS THAT ALL? 1108 00:38:50,767 --> 00:38:51,967 >> THAT'S IT. YOU'RE ALL DONE. 1109 00:38:51,967 --> 00:38:53,567 >> THANK YOU. HAVE A GREAT DAY. 1110 00:38:53,567 --> 00:38:55,100 >> YOU SURE YOU DON'T WANT TO 1111 00:38:55,100 --> 00:38:55,600 DRIVE? 1112 00:38:55,600 --> 00:38:57,833 >> I'M POSITIVE. THANKS. 1113 00:38:57,833 --> 00:38:59,167 THIS IS MY CHART. 1114 00:38:59,167 --> 00:39:01,300 I STARTED MARKING THEM OUT TO 1115 00:39:01,300 --> 00:39:03,133 THE WEIGHTS I WAS LOSING. 1116 00:39:03,133 --> 00:39:05,367 THAT'S WHERE I'M AT AND WHERE I 1117 00:39:05,367 --> 00:39:06,367 WANT TO BE. 1118 00:39:06,367 --> 00:39:07,567 BUT THAT HELPS ME. 1119 00:39:07,567 --> 00:39:09,433 ANYTIME I FEEL LIKE SNACKING, I 1120 00:39:09,433 --> 00:39:11,233 COME IN HERE AND I LOOK AT IT, 1121 00:39:11,233 --> 00:39:13,167 BECAUSE THERE'S, LIKE, JUNK FOOD 1122 00:39:13,167 --> 00:39:14,333 ALL AROUND THIS HOUSE. 1123 00:39:14,333 --> 00:39:15,500 CHRIS PACKS HIS LUNCH. 1124 00:39:15,500 --> 00:39:18,200 CHRIS EATS JUNK FOOD. 1125 00:39:18,200 --> 00:39:22,167 THIS STOMACH AREA WAS 120 INCHES 1126 00:39:22,167 --> 00:39:24,300 IN CIRCUMFERENCE. 1127 00:39:24,300 --> 00:39:25,467 AND NOW IT IS... 1128 00:39:25,467 --> 00:39:26,400 WHAT IS IT? 1129 00:39:26,400 --> 00:39:28,467 >> I DON'T KNOW. I CAN'T -- MOVE 1130 00:39:28,467 --> 00:39:29,833 YOUR FINGER A LITTLE BIT. 1131 00:39:29,833 --> 00:39:30,267 48". 1132 00:39:30,267 --> 00:39:31,233 >> NO, IT'S NOT. 1133 00:39:31,233 --> 00:39:32,133 >> YES, IT IS 1134 00:39:32,300 --> 00:39:34,167 >> IT'S TWISTED OR SOMETHING. 1135 00:39:34,167 --> 00:39:35,733 IT CAN'T BE THAT LITTLE. 1136 00:39:35,733 --> 00:39:36,667 >> IT'S 48"! 1137 00:39:36,667 --> 00:39:38,167 WHY WOULD I LIE ABOUT IT? 1138 00:39:38,333 --> 00:39:39,567 >> IT IS 48", AIN'T IT? 1139 00:39:39,567 --> 00:39:40,200 >> YEAH. 1140 00:39:40,200 --> 00:39:41,600 >> [ CHUCKLES ] 1141 00:39:41,600 --> 00:39:45,533 THAT'S AMAZING. 1142 00:39:45,533 --> 00:39:46,500 I LOVE LIFE. 1143 00:39:46,500 --> 00:39:48,567 I REALLY FEEL IT IS A SHAME THAT 1144 00:39:48,567 --> 00:39:50,567 I HAVE TO SLEEP, BECAUSE I FELT 1145 00:39:50,567 --> 00:39:52,233 LIKE I WASTED SO MUCH OF MY 1146 00:39:52,233 --> 00:39:52,733 LIFE. 1147 00:39:52,733 --> 00:39:53,533 COME ON. 1148 00:39:53,533 --> 00:39:54,667 >> ALL RIGHT. 1149 00:39:54,667 --> 00:39:56,900 >> I HAD SO MUCH ENERGY, AND I 1150 00:39:56,900 --> 00:39:57,867 WAS READY FOR IT. 1151 00:39:57,867 --> 00:40:00,300 I WAS READY TO GET MY LIFE BACK. 1152 00:40:04,033 --> 00:40:05,300 >> NO, YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO TAG 1153 00:40:05,300 --> 00:40:07,333 BACK LIKE THAT. 1154 00:40:09,600 --> 00:40:11,333 BUT LIFE IS STILL A LITTLE 1155 00:40:11,333 --> 00:40:14,200 OVERWHELMING FOR ME. 1156 00:40:14,200 --> 00:40:15,900 I CRAVE THE WEIRDEST THINGS -- 1157 00:40:15,900 --> 00:40:19,200 SALT, SALTINE CRACKERS, CHINESE 1158 00:40:19,200 --> 00:40:20,000 FOOD. 1159 00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:21,333 I KNOW, WHEN I'M GOING TO EAT 1160 00:40:21,333 --> 00:40:22,667 THEM, THAT I'M GOING TO THROW 1161 00:40:22,667 --> 00:40:23,100 UP. 1162 00:40:23,100 --> 00:40:24,967 BUT SOMETIMES, HONESTLY, IF I'M 1163 00:40:24,967 --> 00:40:26,600 CRAVING IT BAD ENOUGH, IT'S 1164 00:40:26,600 --> 00:40:28,567 WORTH GETTING SICK FOR. 1165 00:40:35,467 --> 00:40:36,733 >> REMEMBER, WHEN YOU FIRST 1166 00:40:36,733 --> 00:40:38,033 WALKED IN, YOU COULDN'T -- I 1167 00:40:38,033 --> 00:40:39,433 MEAN, I THOUGHT, "OH, MY GOSH. 1168 00:40:39,433 --> 00:40:40,833 SHE'S NOT GONNA FIT THROUGH THE 1169 00:40:40,833 --> 00:40:42,233 HALL," 'CAUSE YOU WERE SO BIG. 1170 00:40:42,233 --> 00:40:43,633 AND LOOK AT YOU NOW. 1171 00:40:43,800 --> 00:40:44,533 >> I'M STILL BIG. 1172 00:40:44,533 --> 00:40:45,467 LOOK AT THE SADDLEBAGS. 1173 00:40:45,467 --> 00:40:45,967 >> OH, NO. 1174 00:40:45,967 --> 00:40:46,867 >> OH, THAT'S CHANGED. 1175 00:40:46,867 --> 00:40:47,533 THAT'S CHANGED. 1176 00:40:47,533 --> 00:40:49,367 >> HEY. HOW ARE YOU, MELISSA? 1177 00:40:49,367 --> 00:40:50,800 >> I'M DOING GOOD. 1178 00:40:50,800 --> 00:40:52,900 >> LET ME TAKE A LOOK AT YOU. 1179 00:40:52,900 --> 00:40:54,367 >> LOOK AT THAT. 1180 00:40:54,367 --> 00:40:55,700 YEAH, MY LEGS ARE AWFUL. 1181 00:40:55,700 --> 00:40:57,300 >> YEAH, TURN AROUND MORE AND 1182 00:40:57,300 --> 00:40:58,167 MORE AND MORE. 1183 00:40:58,167 --> 00:40:59,600 I THINK PRIORITY WILL BE TO 1184 00:40:59,600 --> 00:41:04,067 GET RID OF THIS. 1185 00:41:04,067 --> 00:41:05,767 MELISSA HAS A LOT OF WEIGHT TO 1186 00:41:05,767 --> 00:41:07,667 LOSE, AND SO SHE'S GONNA HAVE A 1187 00:41:07,667 --> 00:41:08,867 LOT OF LOOSE SKIN. 1188 00:41:08,867 --> 00:41:12,433 YOU PROBABLY HAVE 50 TO 60 1189 00:41:12,433 --> 00:41:14,233 POUNDS OF EXTRA SKIN. 1190 00:41:14,233 --> 00:41:16,300 SHE'S GONNA NEED MULTIPLE 1191 00:41:16,300 --> 00:41:18,433 SURGERY TO REMOVE THE EXTRA 1192 00:41:18,433 --> 00:41:18,933 SKIN. 1193 00:41:18,933 --> 00:41:20,467 BY THE TIME WE FINISH YOUR 1194 00:41:20,467 --> 00:41:22,133 SURGERY, YOU'RE GONNA BE LIKE 1195 00:41:22,133 --> 00:41:24,333 280 POUNDS OR LESS. 1196 00:41:24,333 --> 00:41:25,133 >> I WANT TO BE. 1197 00:41:25,133 --> 00:41:26,533 >> NOW, YOU WANT TO BE WHAT YOU 1198 00:41:26,533 --> 00:41:27,900 GOT TO BE, AND JUST TAKE IT ONE 1199 00:41:27,900 --> 00:41:29,267 STEP AT A TIME AND QUIT TRYING 1200 00:41:29,267 --> 00:41:30,067 TO RUSH THINGS. 1201 00:41:30,067 --> 00:41:31,267 I'VE BEEN TELLING YOU SINCE 1202 00:41:31,267 --> 00:41:32,633 DAY ONE, PERFECTION TAKES TIME. 1203 00:41:32,633 --> 00:41:34,733 >> IF HE LIPOSUCTIONS NOT JUST 1204 00:41:34,733 --> 00:41:36,933 EXCESS SKIN, BUT IF HE ACTUALLY 1205 00:41:36,933 --> 00:41:38,967 LIPOSUCTIONS FAT, THEN IT MAY 1206 00:41:38,967 --> 00:41:40,733 BE A BIGGER NUMBER, TOO. 1207 00:41:40,733 --> 00:41:42,900 I JUST WANT TO BE DONE. 1208 00:41:42,900 --> 00:41:45,300 I'M READY TO BE A MOM. 1209 00:41:45,300 --> 00:41:47,600 I'M READY TO HAVE A JOB. 1210 00:41:47,600 --> 00:41:48,833 >> YOU CAN'T RUSH IT. 1211 00:41:48,833 --> 00:41:51,133 YOU CANNOT RUSH PERFECTION. 1212 00:41:51,133 --> 00:41:53,400 HELLO? 1213 00:41:53,400 --> 00:41:54,900 ARE YOU MAD AT ME? 1214 00:41:54,900 --> 00:41:57,233 >> I THINK, HONESTLY, SOMETIMES 1215 00:41:57,233 --> 00:41:59,300 YOU MISS THE FAT ME. 1216 00:41:59,300 --> 00:42:00,800 >> AND WHY DO YOU SAY THAT? 1217 00:42:00,800 --> 00:42:02,333 >> 9 TIMES OUT OF 10, WHEN WE 1218 00:42:02,333 --> 00:42:03,800 EAT OUT, IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE 1219 00:42:03,800 --> 00:42:04,333 HUNGRY. 1220 00:42:04,333 --> 00:42:06,300 BUT YOU DON'T DISCOURAGE ME WHEN 1221 00:42:06,300 --> 00:42:08,133 YOU SEE ME DOING THINGS THAT I 1222 00:42:08,133 --> 00:42:09,533 SHOULDN'T BE DOING. 1223 00:42:09,533 --> 00:42:10,767 >> YEAH, I KNOW. 1224 00:42:10,767 --> 00:42:12,533 >> I THINK THAT YOU LIKED 1225 00:42:12,533 --> 00:42:17,900 KNOWING THAT I NEEDED YOU. 1226 00:42:17,900 --> 00:42:18,833 I CAN'T BELIEVE WE FORGOT THE 1227 00:42:18,833 --> 00:42:19,900 CAN OPENER. 1228 00:42:19,900 --> 00:42:22,067 >> I DIDN'T FORGET IT. 1229 00:42:22,067 --> 00:42:22,967 I'LL MAKE THIS WORK. 1230 00:42:22,967 --> 00:42:23,867 ARE YOU KIDDING? 1231 00:42:26,933 --> 00:42:29,867 OH, RIGHT HERE. 1232 00:42:29,867 --> 00:42:30,700 I'M A BIG BOY. 1233 00:42:30,700 --> 00:42:32,133 I KNOW HOW TO OPEN UP A CAN OF 1234 00:42:32,133 --> 00:42:32,600 CHILI. 1235 00:42:32,600 --> 00:42:34,067 I'LL ASK HER IF SHE NEEDS HELP, 1236 00:42:34,067 --> 00:42:35,600 AND SHE'S LIKE, "LEAVE ME ALONE. 1237 00:42:35,600 --> 00:42:36,967 I GOT IT." 1238 00:42:36,967 --> 00:42:38,067 "OKAY." 1239 00:42:38,067 --> 00:42:40,233 >> IT'S A LOT OF THINGS THAT 1240 00:42:40,233 --> 00:42:42,567 COME ALONG WITH LOSING WEIGHT. 1241 00:42:42,567 --> 00:42:44,867 CHRIS AND I HAVE TO REBUILD A 1242 00:42:44,867 --> 00:42:47,267 WHOLE NEW RELATIONSHIP, BECAUSE 1243 00:42:47,267 --> 00:42:49,767 OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP WAS BASED 1244 00:42:49,767 --> 00:42:52,500 ON ME BEING FAT. 1245 00:42:52,500 --> 00:42:53,800 IT'S A LOT HARDER THAN I THOUGHT 1246 00:42:53,800 --> 00:42:55,767 IT WAS GONNA BE. 1247 00:42:55,767 --> 00:42:56,900 BUT EVEN THROUGH EVERYTHING THAT 1248 00:42:56,900 --> 00:42:57,967 I'VE BEEN THROUGH, EVEN THROUGH 1249 00:42:57,967 --> 00:42:59,100 EVERYTHING THAT CHRIS AND I HAVE 1250 00:42:59,100 --> 00:43:01,667 BEEN THROUGH, I AM LIVING THE 1251 00:43:01,667 --> 00:43:03,167 BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE. 1252 00:43:03,333 --> 00:43:06,333 I KNEW, 100%, WITHOUT THIS 1253 00:43:06,333 --> 00:43:08,700 SURGERY, I WAS GONNA DIE. 1254 00:43:08,700 --> 00:43:10,567 EVERYTHING THAT I COULDN'T DO 1255 00:43:10,567 --> 00:43:12,867 BEFORE, I DO, AND MORE. 1256 00:43:12,867 --> 00:43:15,133 I CAN MOVE AND BREATHE AND NOT 1257 00:43:15,133 --> 00:43:17,167 WAKE UP EVERY DAY HURTING. 1258 00:43:17,167 --> 00:43:18,900 THAT'S WHAT MAKES IT WORTH IT. 1259 00:43:18,900 --> 00:43:20,367 NOTHING IN MY LIFE HAS BEEN 1260 00:43:20,367 --> 00:43:22,467 EASY -- NOTHING. 1261 00:43:22,467 --> 00:43:24,300 THIS IS A BATTLE THAT I WANT TO 1262 00:43:24,300 --> 00:43:25,133 WIN. 1263 00:43:25,133 --> 00:43:26,300 THIS IS SOMETHING I WANTED TO 1264 00:43:26,300 --> 00:43:27,100 FIGHT FOR. 1265 00:43:27,100 --> 00:43:28,800 THIS IS HOW YOU'RE WALKING. 1266 00:43:28,800 --> 00:43:29,833 GOT TO KEEP GOING. 1267 00:43:29,833 --> 00:43:32,700 GOT TO KEEP GOING.